Speaking Silence

locked in loserville

Im pounding my fists

against the wall,

dreaming of a way that this barrier could fall.

You're close and i can feel it,

im striving to breathe.

The tention fills the air

slowly

and i freeze.

My mind, a jumble of things i cant describe,

i wonder if you'd ever see past all my lies.

If you would grab my hand 

and tell me i'll be fine.

Can you tell it isn't true 

when i say im alright?

It's too much for me to take, 

falling in 

love

is a big mistake.

this wishfull thinking.

its whats hurting me today,

but for now i'll cry and hope 

it eases the pain away.