Speaking Silence

There

These feelings are like

An agitated volcano.

Just another thought of you

And I'm certain i'll blow.

I have no idea what to do,

It feels like I'm drowning

in the depths of you.

Your laugh .

Your smile,

they're embedded in my mind,

you're everything in me

That i was never able to find.

But to my dismay,

I realize late,that you are all i need.

Maybe it was always that way,

For i was just too blind to see.

I should have known from then,

That you were always there,

I should have known when

You claimed i was flawed

but in no need of repair.

I shall never forget

your touch on my skin,

comforting me,

As my sobs ricocheted

off the restroom walls.

I remember you saying

i'd be okay

And that you'd be there

to break every one of my falls

But everyday is a constant reminder

that you are not mine,

that you have someone else,

'Her'

on your mind.

I know that i'm wrong,

I don't have the right

To love you

when i had been unaware

For so long.

I also understand that i am to blame

if you ever find out

And don't feel the same.

but no, it doesn't hurt to dream

That one day you'll

Turn around

And see

That i wasn't as far away

As i seemed.