You Found Me

Chapter 14

Tori's POV

Ugh am so sick of Trina, she doesn't care that because of her, I am sick. She doesn't care about me at all! Why is she trying to ruin my life ughhhh! She is the worst sister. I can't believe she tried to split me and Beck up, what is she gonna do next kiss him again??? Oh let her just wait till I find her. She has to stop this. I can't deal with her anymore. I left to go home and find Trina. This has to stop, and it has to stop now, whether she likes it or not. I reached home and rushed to Trina's room.

Me: why do you hate me Trina?? What did I ever do to you?? Why are you now trying to break me and Beck up, when we've just started dating? Is you making me mentally ill not enough for you??? Why do you wanna ruin my life?!
Trina: because you ruined mine, by being born. And fyi am helping you with Beck. He doesn't like you... He feels sorry for you. All the time you are sad, and so he thought maybe this would make you happy. Believe me he has no feelings for you. I mean... Why would he like a bulimic girl. It is a disgusting disease. Why'd he like you if all the many girls in the world? You are fat and ugly.
Me: Am not gonna believe you. You know nothing about him.
Trina: maybe... But on thing is for sure... You are ugly, fat, and disgusting.
Me: (runs to the bathroom crying)

I can't do this. It is just what she wants me to do. I was in the bathroom trying to stop myself from doing something I'd regret. I kept looking at the toilet which seemed to be getting closer and closer, my fingers were coming closer to my mouth. I was just about to do it when I remembered what my therapist told me. I took a deep breath and let my conscience guide me.

You are doing this for you, for your friends, your parents, and Beck. They would not want you to do this to yourself Tori. You are strong. You are beautiful. And you cannot give your jerk face of a sister what she wants. She is getting in your head, and you need to fight this temptation. Step away from the toilet and get your fingers away from your mouth.

I finally managed not to do it. I got out of the bathroom and went to find him. I need him right now. As I was just about to live the house, I opened the door and found him, just about to ring the door bell. When I saw him I just immediately hugged him, and broke down into tears. I was both happy and sad at the same time. Happy that I resisted the urge to make myself puke on my own, but sad that my own sister hates me. And always has since I was born.