Love Wayback 1998

LW1998 - 2

Margaret Buenavista.

My dreams are getting really wild, after telling me what date today is, Carlos left me, and I was too stunned.

Nung hinabol ko siya ay nakauwi na daw, I remember each staff. Sila ang nga kasama ko sa top rating teleserye ko noon.

Teleserye ko...

Am I really back at 1997? My eyes are too tired to cry, pinahatid nila ako sa condo ko.

My condo... my home..

Our home.

Carlos and I's home for two years. The moment I entered the room I broke down.

Yung ayos ng bahay... yung kama... ganitong ganito ang ayos nito taong 1997

It feel surreal to be back at this place, with same furniture and all. I ended up sleeping at the same bed. I enjoyed the feeling of the warmth of 1997 in my dreams, maybe tomorrow, I'll wake up again and face the reality of 2022, the year wherein the love of my life was already 20 years gone.

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I woke up with a call from my cellphone, my are still closed pero pinipilit kong kapain kung nasaan ito.

I can't find my iphone. I decided to open my eyes only to find that I'm still in... my condo? My old condo, and my iphone was nowhere to be found, a keypad phone was the one I held.

It's ringing and Sol is calling??? Sol? My P.A?

"Hello, boss! Jusko po, asan ka na? Si Direk Venny nagagalit na, ikaw nalang inaantay." Bungad niya sa akin.

What?

"Sol?"

"Boss papunta na ako sa condo mo, mag ayos ka na, late ka sa shooting." Namatay ang tawag. Binaba na niya ang phone.

I'm still dreaming? But I can fully remember that I slept. Hindi ako nananaginip. Nasaktan ako nang kurutin ko ang sarili ko. This is not a dream.

So I'm really back at 1997? Bakit? Paano? Anong dahilan?

I do as I told, naligo ako at nag ayos, ng makita ko ang sarili ko ay nagulat ako.

I was young. So young. I held my cheeks... This is the Margaret that full of love and happiness, back then.

Ito yung Margaret na masaya pa, walang iniisip masyado.

Wala pang bakas ng sugat at sakin ng hinaharap.

The young, beautiful and happy, Celestine Margaret Buenavista.

Tears started to fall as I look at my younger self, who would have thought that this beautiful young lady right here will become miserable in the future.

I covered my mouth.

Oh my young self, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I did your future dirty. I'm sorry I failed you.

I'm sorry, I ruined you. I'm sorry I disappointed you.

Patawarin mo ako hindi ko natupad yung mga pangarap mo para sa akin.

I ended up hugging myself for a couple of minutes in the bathroom before finally fixing my things and going to the location, Sol texted me.

Pagkadating ko doon, Direk was mad. Nagpalusot nalang ako, telling him na hindi padin maganda ang pakiramdam ko.

He told me okay, isang scene lang daw ang isho-shoot kaya hwag akong mag alala.

I decided to go to our tent, magpapa make up na ako.