Bee duo one shots

Chubbo (bee duo)

Tubbo sat on his bed feeling slightly disconnected as the shudders wracked through his body. He knew that dissociating was only going to hurt him eventually,, but he already vaguely felt the tears streaming down his checks and he knew if he fully tuned back into himself he would not be able to stop himself from sobbing. Tubbo tucked his head into his legs and let himself drift further up into his mind. Normally, he would not care about volume but seeing a ranboo was currently staying with him, he wanted to avoid alerting his friend to how upset he was. Logically, he knows ranboo would not judge him, he might even comfort him. But Tubbo felt too much shame to let someone see him crying, especially over something so... trivial. Tubbo had always struggled with his body image, and it got harder when he started seeing chubbo everywhere. He had eventually gotten it banned from his chat,, but he never got around to telling his friends how much that one little word affected him. So, when he saw it in ranboos chat, he was sent into a spiral of self-hatred. The pizza he had for lunch, feeling like a stone in his stomach. He wanted to go run until he dropped, he wanted to purge the food from his stomach until it felt blissfully empty. Tubbo was snapped out of his thoughts when he heard ranboo do his welp ending stream clap, quickly trying to zone back in and stop the tears from coming. He did not know how he was going to hide the fact he had been crying with the redness around his eyes,, but he quickly wiped his eyes and sat up in his bed as he heard ranboo moving around the house. "Tubbo what do you want for dinner I'm starving after the stream" ranboo called up to the loft. Tubbo felt dread, knowing there was no way he was going to be able to eat after the episode he just went through. "I'm fine, boss man, I just had pizza not that long ago, I don't need anything". Tubbo cringed at how rough his voice sounded from the hours of silent sobbing. Ranboo paused before saying. "Have you been watching Grays again, it sounds like you've been crying." Tubbo had to give a silent laugh at ranboos attempt to check on him, neither of them being good with emotional vulnerability. He shuffled his way downstairs before flopping dramatically down onto the couch. "I just woke up, you know my voice gets all weird when I've been asleep" ranboo stared at him in concern before coming to sit next to him. "Seems reasonable, but your eyes are all red you don't have to talk to me if you don't want to Tubbs, but you don't need to pretend like everything is okay. Tubbo gave him a small grin, "thanks boo, but I'm all good". Ranboo gave a slight shrug of his shoulder before standing up. "If you say so, I think I'm gonna heat up that pizza, are you sure you don't want any?" Tubbos stomach rolled at the thought of food. "I'm positive big man, do you mind if I put on the owl house well you eat?" Tubbo asked, giving ranboo a hopeful smile. "Go ahead" ranboo said, eyes crinkling as he smiled back at him seeming appeased for the moment . Ranboo went into the kitchen heating his pizza. As soon as the smell of cooking food started drifting into the living room, Tubbo couldn't hold back the nausea  anymore. He ran into the bathroom heaving in the toilet feeling everything he ate that day coming back up making him feel sick with himself. As he sat in front of the toilet feeling the lowest he had felt in a while, he heard ranboo come in. Ranboo being a better friend than Tubbo could ever be, immediately sat down next to him and started to rub his back. As soon as Tubbo was done puking, he grimaced and sat up. "Thanks boo, I think I'm good now" ranboo felt his forehead in concern. " Have you been sick all day you don't feel hot" Tubbo frowned "I'm not really sick can I explain after I've brushed my teeth I feel gross" ranboo stood up looking confused but nodded and went out to the living room. Tubbo sighed, hating that he had to let another person in on his shortcomings but knowing he was way too close to slipping back into his unhealthy habits. He quickly brushed his teeth before going out into the living room. Ranboo sat on the couch watching him anxiously. Tubbo wrung his hands together nervously looking down at them, not wanting to see the look in ranboos eyes when he told him. "So if you hadn't noticed I sometimes have issues with food, today was a bad day already and when I smelled the pizza cooking it was just too much." Tubbo glanced quickly at ranboo and saw understanding flash across his face. Ranboo smiled at Tubbo gently trying to sooth him a little. "Do you usually struggle this much with eating bee?" "Sometimes, but it's gotten better recently. I've been speaking with my therapist about it, and I've been working on it, but I was triggered today" Tubbo said face heating up. "What happens today, ranboo asked in concern?" "It was nothing really I just need to learn how to handle my emotions better" Tubbo said feeling embarrassed. "Tubbo, please tell me what set you off" ranboo said quietly. "Tubbo looked down again, not wanting to see ranboos face at his answer. "It's just, In my chat I have the word chubbo banned but no one else does, and I'm not saying it's everyone's job to make sure I'm not set off by something it's just a little hard when I see that word" Tubbo admitted softly. "One second, ranboo said before picking up his phone. "What are you doing?" Tubbo asked confused. "I'm banning that word from my chat" ranboo said like it should be obvious. "Why?" Tubbo asked, feeling lost. "Tubbo why would I keep a word in my chat that makes you feel bad about yourself Ranboo said before setting his phone down. "Thank you boo" Tubbo said feeling himself start to cry again. "Would it be okay if I hugged you? Ranboo asked softly. Tubbo nodded quickly before moving closer. "I think you should tell your other friends about that word upsetting you. I'm sure they would ban it for you" ranboo said. Tubbo gave a shrug, not saying anything. "I really think you should bee, why put yourself through that if you don't have to? You can't say you wouldn't do it for them. "Tubbo hummed thoughtfully, maybe your right boo, but for now, can we cuddle? Ranboo smiled and laid back on the couch, turning up the TV and resting his head on top of tubbos. Tubbo laid back against him and for the first time since seeing that comment relaxed.