You know that feeling when you put yourself aside so others can shine? That fucking feeling when you turn off yourself so others won't notice you having problems as well? If you don't, i really really envy you, like a lot. Because i've been that person my whole life. The one everyone talks to when they have issues and problems, the one that always gives advices. The girl who seems confident in herself and who is just a side character in other people's lives. But why can't i have my down moments? why, whenever i show a little slice of feelings and emotions, i'm immediately judged and criticised by people around me? Who said i can't express myself? I'm not allowed, okay okay i get it. I know i'm not much as a person, that i'm insecure and unstable and mentally ill but why can't i break down? And why, whenever i try and show up something i immediately get shut down by others and i get to cope with everything by myself? I don't get it. I'm always the one who sacrifices for others. I'm always the one that throws their life apart to help others.
But i'm tired.
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Storia di un'anima
PoetryUna raccolta di poesie e riflessioni scritte da me nel corso delle giornate e in cui mi sfogo, mi esprimo laddove non riesco a farlo a voce.
