He would typically bring up his female exes, or talk about how cute girls were, even though he knew I was gay. (Not anymore, but at the time) he continued to talk about girls, girls, girls, girls.
He would even bring up memes, regarding how cute girls were and me being a trans man at the time felt off. I didnt like how he spent so much time talking about girls. I felt obligated to be whoever he wanted me to. I wanted, no, needed his attention.
When I had talked to him about having a stressful day resulting in a panic attack, he did nothing, when I made a joke, he laughed, but mostly payed more attention to the TV or spent the whole day playing minecraft. I missed him, I wanted him to notice me.
So I did what I thought was right, and I pretended to be genderfluid for him. So then I could pretend I was a girl for him, but I could feel comfortable as a guy some days for me.
