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I walked towards the small bathrooms, finding an empty stall. I sat on the toilet seat thinking over Lexi's words. Am I doing that many pills? I thought I was doing really good with managing to keep my urges at bay. I chuckled thinking about it, eventually the chuckle turned into a full-blown laugh. The other people in here probably think I'm insane, but I didn't have a single care flowing through my entire body. 

Fine, if Lexi thinks I'm such an addict, I'll show her how much of a fucking addict I am. I reached into my bra, pulling out two random pills. I had no idea what they consisted of but I found them while cleaning Griffin's room earlier.

Griffin didn't use drugs like I do, but throughout the years he's accumulated quite the stash of prescription pills. Advantages of being mentally ill, I guess. 

Not caring about the future, I set both pills on the toilet paper holder. I took my phone, crushing both pills with a big bang. I was so focused on getting high, I didn't care who heard me. I started talking to myself under my breath probably looking psychotic, 'fucking Lexi. who the fuck does she think she is calling me an addict-' I stopped to snort the first line before instantly talking again, 'I'll fucking show that bitch who's an addict-' another snort. I shot my body back on the toilet, looking up to the ceiling. My nose started to bleed from all the substances but I used toilet paper and cleaned it up. 

I instantly felt a rush of euphoria, I sat with my mouth open finally enjoying myself. I looked left then right, my eyes lagged severely but that's part of the fun. I smiled and stood up, flushing the baggie I kept them in, before leaving the bathroom. As I walked, I felt my legs move like jelly. I decided I needed to sit down so I found a tree away from the crowds. I sat and frowned thinking of how Lexi called Fez a bad person. That breaks my heart, Fez was the most caring person I've ever came acr-

"Are you having fun?" I heard someone say from above me, I looked up and saw it was Maddy who asked. As we made eye contact, I sighed and shrugged before saying, "could be better I guess"

"Cool us too...wanna do Molly?" Cassie asked, stepping out from behind Maddy. I grinned from ear to ear before following them. I know this sounds like a terrible idea, but believe it or not I've done worse. We made it to the pretzel stand and Ash looked between us before settling his eyes on me. I felt him look over my appearance as I avoided eye contact. All I can do is thank God Fez seemed to not be here right now.

"Welcome to Pretzelmania. Can I take your order?" Maddy handed him cash. 

Ash asked how many and Maddy responded with, "we don't eat carbs." Cassie rolled her eyes and asked for 3. Ash gave me another look over before turning to get our order. Cassie turned to us and asked Maddy, "you think Nates cheating on you?" As much as I wish I could have been surprised, it was basically just another day with those two. With Ash gone I finally completely faced them, allowing them to see how insane my pupils looked from the two previous pills. Maddy gasped while Cassie spoke up. 

"Holy shit May!" Cassie instantly spat out. I used my hand to shut her up as I nodded my head in Ashtray's direction, silently communicating with them. They nodded before I held up my hand and flung it, signaling 'no big deal, don't worry about it'. They looked me over in concern before continuing on with the conversation.

Maddy responded with, "I don't know. He's just been acting super-weird lately. 

Cassie asked, "Have you gone through his phone?" I chipped in with, "I've never not gone through someone's phone."