WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS: SADDENING THEMES SUCH AS: DEPRESSION, PANIC ATTACKS. AND ALSO CONTAINS SENSITIVE CONTENT SUCH AS BLOOD AND SELF HARM. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THIS TYPE OF CONTENT, PLEASE EXIT THIS PAGE. THANK YOU!
"It's ok. Whatever way you want to put it. I'm still listening, ok?"
"Yeah..."
"Alright! What's the matter?"
"U-Uh—"
"I understand if you aren't ready now. But you have to tell me sometime so I can help you."
"Um...I'm not ready..."
"Ok, well I'll just give you some alone time until you are. PLEASE just know, that I'm here for you. Alright? We're in this together."
"...Ok."
Charli exits the room, leaving Jaxx alone.
*I didn't know she...actually cared. I seemed so selfish. Why would she forgive me? Why, Charli?...*
*I'm so sorry...*
*I should've said it in a way that you would understand...I'm a horrible friend. I deserve what you said to me. I deserve this pain. I deserve it. I'm better off alone. I SHOULD'VE BEEN A BETTER FRIEND! BUT I COULDN'T. THERE'S NO WAY I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO.*
Jaxx grabs his phone and notices that he received messages from an old friend.
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10:47 AM: *hi Jaxx! it's been while yk*
10:49 AM: *even tho u may not respond which is ok, i just wanna let u know that ima throw a party at my house. in case if u wanna reunite then my address is gunna be in our shared notes from like 5 yrs ago. cya at my house if ur coming!*
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*Hm...am I really going to go to a party, that an old friend is hosting?*
*I guess I will. I feel bad for him, anyway...*
Jaxx opened the Notes app, changed the filter to Shared Notes, and scrolled down all the way to the notes from 2017. He scrolls through them until he runs into something strange.
*Hmm, what's this?*
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DECEMBER 21st, 2017
"Today is near the end of December, and almost Christmas. Alex has been talking about wanting to get early things and being ok WITHOUT anything under the tree, and saying her new Boyfriend is the true gift anyway. And so, I told Lily about it and she's currently helping Maya and Jordan pick an early gift for her. I want to do something special for her too, but I can't really afford it due to issues..."
"Hi, Jaxx <3 it's me Maya! I see that u entered something here, so I will too! Instead of worrying about what to get Alex, worry about how stable your friendship is. I have noticed that even though she's been helping you fight your depression and helping you manage YOURSELF, it's starting to get a little less stable because she found out that her new Boyfriend has depression too. And now she spends more time with him than you."
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*W-What?...but I...I didn't tell anybody about my depression. How did she?...No. It can't be. There's no way. She couldn't have if I kept it private. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO.*
*HOW COULD SHE HAVE FOUND OUT? I CAN'T REMEMBER. IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE THAT WAY. WHY DID MAYA TELL HER? NO. NO. NO.*
"ALEX!!!!"
~Meanwhile~
"Charli, can you pass me that Lemonade right there?"
"Oh— sure, Alex!"
Charli grabs the Lemonade and slides it across the island to Alex.
"So...Charli, I've been wanting to tell you something."
"Hm?"
"It's about Jaxx. I had an old friend named Maya, from 2002. So in 2017, she basically told me something that I hadn't known the entire time of being friends with him. It made me worry a lot, until my ex came in and I started worrying about him when he had felt the same way as Jaxx."
"What is it?"
"Well, he has—"
Alex and Charli hear loud calls for Alex in the distance, seeming to be coming from Jaxx's room. They both stare at each other silently, in shock and worry.
"Alex. He's calling you...GO CHECK ON HIM! QUICK!"
"But what about—"
"WE CAN TALK ABOUT IT LATER! GO!!"
"OK, OK!!"
Alex rushes upstairs as fast as she can and slams Jaxx's room door open. The first things she sees are a messy stack of books and a chair in the corner of the room, covered in blood.
"No. NO!"
She hears crying coming from the bathroom and tries to open it, but it's locked. So she starts pounding on the door.
"JAXX! OPEN THE DOOR!"
She keeps pounding and soon starts to burst into tears.
"JAXX...P-PLEASE OPEN..."
"CHARLI IS WORRIED ABOUT YOU—AND SO AM I..."
He finally gives in and opens the door.
"Oh...m-my...WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF?!? YOU'RE LITERALLY BLEEDING LIKE CRAZY! WHAT IS THIS SUPPOSED TO MEAN, HUH?"
"...Alex, I-I can e-explain..."
"WHY DIDN'T YOU THINK ABOUT ME? ABOUT CHARLI? ABOUT EVERYBODY HERE?!? CHARLI—SHE SAID SHE WAS THERE FOR YOU! HOW COULD YOU BETRAY HER LIKE THIS?! SHE TRUSTED YOU!!"
"I...*sniff...* I'm sorry...I should have t-thought about C-Charli..."
"YOU SHOULD BE SORRY! CHARLI!!!!!!"
Charli comes upstairs as fast as she can, quickly entering the room and stopping in shock when she sees Jaxx.
"What are you...*sniff...* no...NO!!! PLEASE DON'T TELL ME YOU'RE GOING THROUGH—"
"Charli, that's what I tried to tell you. He is going through it. He's been battling it ever since we met, when THEY MET. that's what Maya told me, at least."
"So, ever since he met your friend Maya, he's been...NO! IT CAN'T BE! I SAID I WOULD BE THERE...HOW COULD THIS HAVE HAPPENED?!"
Everyone seems to be silent for a while. Until Alex suggests something.
"Charli, maybe you should sleep in the same room as Jaxx for now, until all of this...is...over. I would prefer if you agreed on it..."
"Y-YES! I PROMISE, I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOUR SIDE, JAXX! NEVER. NEVER!!"
"Ok, I'll get cameras too in case."
Alex rushes downstairs to grab cameras, and order new ones. Meanwhile, Charli and Jaxx decide to talk to each other about their issue.
"Jaxx...why have you been like this?...All I asked was for you to love yourself..."
"...I'm sorry— I-I'm so naive..."
"I understand how you feel...PLEASE, just know...that I'm here for you...alright? We're in this together..."
"Trust me."
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FanfictionTRIGGER WARNING: Content in this story may sadden/depress the reader, sensitive content such as self harm and violence WILL be contained as well, due to the storyline. Viewer discretion is advised. :v) THIS IS A FANFICTION, AS THIS IS NOT A REAL EVE...
