| ~ similarities ~ | // charaxx fanfic

| ~ similarities ~ | (9)

WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS: SADDENING THEMES SUCH AS: DEPRESSION, PANIC ATTACKS. IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE TO THIS TYPE OF CONTENT, PLEASE EXIT THIS PAGE. THANK YOU!

As the week went on, Charli tried her best to protect Jaxx and be there for him for as long as she could. She would force him to keep his location services on so she could see where he was if he ever left the house, and she got rid of anything that may have or could have triggered him.

She would make sure that he always got what he needed and she even attempted to spoon him, but he politely declined the offer.

~2 Months Later~

"..."

"Hey, Jaxx?"

"Hm?"

"Have you ever read this book before? It's called 'The Blossom Crescent'. I think you should read it if you haven't?"

"No, never heard of it..."

"Well, it's basically about this girl who has a secret admirer. She doesn't know who he is and he's too nervous to say anything to her because he's afraid that she won't like him back—and the rest is a secret itself. Because I don't want to spoil—"

"..."

"OH! Sorry, I didn't mean to talk a lot, I just didn't think that you'd be bothered and I guess not...I just talk too much, don't I?"

"No. I'm ok with it. I'm fine. I just need to be...alone."

"B-BUT— JAXX! You CAN'T be alone! You have to stay with ME!"

"Please, Charli."

"BUT I NEED TO—"

"Please."

"...Fine."

Charli leaves the room and Jaxx is now alone.

*Those notes from...a couple of months ago...I need to check those again.*

Jaxx grabs his phone and opens up the Notes app. He filters it to 'Shared Notes' and scrolls down to the notes from 2017 again, and looks for the same one that he was at before. But just above it is more notes, but they are only typed down by him and no one else, about the same week of that year.

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DECEMBER 25th, 2017

"Finally, it's Christmas. Alex got everything that she wanted, and so did everybody else. Except for me. All I have ever wanted was to be happy with myself and get out of this depression; which I feel is some kind of curse. To bring me torture, to bring me pain."

"I feel as if I'm in an endless story; and I play 2 roles. I feel as if I am the Protagonist and the Antagonist all at once. Nobody's helping me. I feel...constant pain. Lily, please, I know you're a good person. PLEASE HELP ME."

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DECEMBER 26th, 2017

"Lily, please."

"Lily. I need you. I know you have good in yourself, please don't leave me for all of them like Maya did. She betrayed us. You can't just ignore me forever."

"Help me"

"Help"

"get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. please help me. please stay with me, Lily."