DISCONTINUED! softcore --- chanjin ; Chan x Hyunjin

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!! tw ;; sensitive topics - panic attacks !!

" I'm too consumed with my own life. "

Hyunjin couldn't deal with Chan's confession, his mind unable to process it. Hyunjin instantly left Chan's dorm at his hyung's words before the elder could say anything else. He went to his and Felix's dorm and locked the door, not caring if Felix could get in or not since he had a key. Hyunjin let out a soft sob as he began to cry. Sure, he wanted Chan to like him, but he couldn't actually take it. His mind overthought everything that could possibly happen now. He began to have a panic attack, not realizing he had slowly sunk to the floor. He heard someone trying to open the door, but his mind didn't recognize someone was going to walk in until his roommate, Felix, walked in. Felix paused, unsure of what to do at seeing his roommate on the floor crying and shaking, in a very soft voice he said, "Jinnie?" Felix closed the door, kneeling down to Hyunjin. Hyunjin looked up at him and quickly scrambled into his arms. Hyunjin buried his head into Felix's chest, letting out sobs, tears staining Felix's white shirt. "What happened Jinnie?" Felix whispered, and when he didn't get a reply, he didn't push for more. Felix rubbed circles into Hyunjin's lower back. Hyunjin took in a deep breath before beginning, "Chan ... he ... Chan loves me, I know that isn't something I should be crying about, but I'm scared. What if he leaves me? Or cheats? Or what if I'm the second choice?" he rambled slightly. Felix thought for a second before saying "take a bit of time off for yourself to figure everything out on how you feel. Does that sound okay?" He was still talking in a soft way, Hyunjin giving him a nod. After that night, Hyunjin began to work out more, dance more, go out a lot, and he even started drinking more than usual. Sure, he'd usually have a glass of wine or something every now and then, but now he'd have a few every week or two. Hyunjin sighed, laying in his bed with a glass of wine on a small table by his bed when the door knocked. "Come in!" Hyunjin shouted and sat up, fixing his hair. His face dropped when Chan walked in and closed the door behind him. Hyunjin sighed, "I'm not in the mood Chan," he said coldly. "No,we're talking," he responded, "go on a date with me, Jinnie." Hyunjin looked at Chan in disbelief and took a sip of his wine. "I'm serious," Chan said. "Okay, fine," Hyunjin said, mentally saying fuck it.