Unspeakable

29. I Don't Need Money

Shen Kanyu went to the front desk to go through the discharge procedures, printed out the bill, and found that A Sheng paid for him a lot of expenses, and he needed to pay only a few hundred yuan by himself.

    He took out his mobile phone and tried to calculate the total price, but there was always a dim image in front of him, which made him press the calculator for a long time to calculate it.

    "Thank you, Asheng..." He looked at the calculated numbers, muttered to himself, thanked Gu Yansheng, took out the corresponding money from his backpack, wrapped it in a tissue, put it in the bag with Gu Yansheng's coat, and left The hospital went to the supermarket where he usually went.

    It was almost winter, the night wind on the street was very cold, and Shen Kanyu was afraid of the cold. After walking for a while, he had to find a shelter from the wind to hide for a while, but his hands and feet were still cold, and his lips were frosty white.

He only wore a thin and loose sweater on his upper body, and he held Gu Yansheng's thick coat in his arms. He didn't dare to take it out and wear it. He just held it through a plastic bag to keep warm - mainly to warm his stomach. , do not let the children inside catch cold.

    He walked all the way to the supermarket, bought some fresh meat, vegetables and fruits, and bought two thermal coats, one large and one small, and stood blankly at the entrance of the supermarket for a while before plucking up the courage to walk in the direction of A Sheng's house.

    After walking a few steps, he would look around, for fear that Gu Yansheng would suddenly appear and drive him away. Although he was only here to deliver things and would not enter the house, he was afraid that A Sheng would not listen to his explanation, thinking that he wanted to go back somehow. .

has corrected himself, he is self-aware, but he knows that no one wants to believe him, and no one will listen to him.

    Fortunately, Gu Yansheng was not seen along the way. He carefully groped to the door of the house and put his things neatly on the shoe rack at the door. When he was about to leave, he heard a sweet, crisp and tender child's voice, shouting in milk. with grandma.

    "Grandma~ Tiantian wants this next time!"

    "Tiantian said she loves grandma, and grandma will take it for you."

    "Tiantian loves grandma!"

    Only then did he realize that the door was open.

    From the crack of the door, he could see Tiantian and Song Li playing in the living room, and he could hear them talking.

    He looked at his daughter who was rolling around in his grandmother's arms, and the thoughts that accumulated countless days and nights came like a surging tide. His nose was unbearably sore, and his eyes were quietly moist in an instant.

    He had imagined countless times that the child would be so affectionately coquettish in his arms, calling Dad and Dad in a not very clever articulation, and as long as he gave her a bite of his beloved snack, she would smile and say Dad I love you.

    But fantasies are just fantasies after all. He knew that his daughter didn't like him, even before he "brainwashed" her. Because he wasn't good enough to her, he didn't know how to love others at all, so that people wouldn't feel bored. It is impossible to teach yourself without being taught.

    He knows all this, he really knows it, he has self-knowledge, he will not be as affectionate as before, he will keep a distance and never get close.

    He corrected, can you not hate him so much.

    Can you, let him take a look.

    Can you, let him... just give him a hug, just give him a hug, give him another hug and go.