𝐀𝐑𝐒𝐎𝐍 - 𝐞. 𝐣𝐚𝐞𝐠𝐚𝐫

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tw: mention of r*pe and alchol usage

⭒𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞⭒

Best friends.

That's what everyone called us.
I was 15 when I first met her, and instantly I noticed how her words towards me were sweet like honey, always soft and perfect.
I was rough, and stubborn, way too stubborn for a girl like y/n.

I wasn't a good person, and neither I am now.

We used to talk every single day, she was always so kind, maybe too much.

What did you see in me?

I would like to ask her if I could, I would like to hug her, tell her how much I miss her, but the only thing that I have of her is a memory, a distant reminiscence of her words and actions that constantly plays in my brian.

Perhaps i was dumb, or maybe she was.

I wanted to kiss her so badly, her lips looked so soft the night she left.

But that night she wasn't alone, she wasn't with me, Armin or Mikasa.

She wasn't laughing with me, she wasn't telling me how much I was drinking, she wasn't there to stop me.

That day, we fought, maybe it was our first fight, but she was starting to act different, maybe I was the bad influence? I wanted to be someone that she could rely on, I wanted to be good for her.

But I was an asshole.

I snapped at her, i couldn't bare it, why would she go with that guy? 

I was jealous, jealous of fucking Floch who had his arms all over her body.

Why Floch?

I hated him, and she knew, she knew so damn well how much i wanted to kill him.
I wanted to understand why she chose him over me, over Jean, over Connie over anyone else.
That night she was gorgeous, that dress looked perfect on her, the way her gaze would fall on me to check that I was seeing the way he looked at her body.

Floch.

Everyone knew that Floch was the worse.

At first, no one seemed to notice how fucking annoying he was, always flirting with girls while dating Mina, the girl with pigtails that used to always sit in the first row during history.
He started with Mina, he cheated on her a couple of times than she eventually left him.

That's when Floch started getting worse.

He kept flirting with girls over and over, sometimes in a very touchy way.

But he was rich, the type of rich that can buy anything, and anyone.

Mikasa dated him for a month or so.

She was dating him only to make Jean jealous, but as soon as she saw how he acted she left him.

He wasn't the type to accept a no, so when she left him, Floch was mad and he almost beat her up.

I was so furious, I was about to kill that bastard, but she was with me.

Y/N has always been smart, enough to understand that if I beat him, I would end up in jail while he would simply be in his mansion doing whatever he wants to do.

Mikasa told Sasha the whole story:  she wanted everyone to know how fucking pathetic he was.

In a couple of days, the whole school knew, maybe he wasn't in jail but no one dared to look at him.

I was still mad, of course I was.

But she was there, somehow just being around her made feel lighter, she made me feel well.

That night though, why was she with him? Why?

She knew what he did to Mina, what he did to Mikasa and how he used to get touchy.

Why?

So I greeted a few friends, the music was so loud and there were far too many people in that house.

Floch's house.

She was dancing with him, her arms around his neck while she smiled at Floch.

That should've been me.

He was just a jerk.

And so was I.

Her hips swayed with the music, his hands were roaming all over her body.

I kept walking to the kitchen, I only wanted to drink to get her off my mind.

She was my best friend but why him?

She was my best friend, right?

I took an empty cup and filled it whatever could make me forget her.

I drank it, and filled it again, and drank, and filled it again, until I almost forgot what my name was.

She was way to pretty for him.

"Fuck I need to get her off my mind" Eren mumbled walking towards Historia.

Historia was gorgeous, but not as pretty as her.

Historia didn't like Eren, but that day her and Ymir fought because the blonde girl didn't want anyone to know about her relationship with another girl.

Ymir got mad, and now Historia needed a reason to make her jealous.

To make her regret everything she said.

So Historia started dancing with him, and Eren almost forgot about y/n who was drinking something with the redhead.

But then he saw her, she was sitting on the kitchen counter, a red cup in her hand, while Floch was in front of her.

Why did she have to be so goddamn pretty?

Dancing with Historia wasn't enough, she barely looked at him.

So he started getting closer, and closer until their lips crashed against eachother.

The girl on the counter saw, so she refilled her cup.

Floch wanted to dance, but she could hardly walk without stumbling over her own feet.

But Floch had a plan.

He knew she was drunk.

He fucking knew.

She carried her to his bedroom.

And locked the door.

She was so pretty, lying on his bed.

He didn't have much time before anyone noticed.

He started getting closer to her body, his hand reaching the hem of her dress.

"THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING" she screamed while trying to get away from him.

"What are you talking about?" he asked with a smile.

She was drunk, and tired, she tried her best to get away from him, moving in the corner of the room.

"GET AWAY FROM ME" she said using the wall as her support to keep herself balanced.

"Or what?" he said slowly walking in her direction.

"DON'T, FLOCH DO NOT TOUCH ME!" she said removing her right heel, trying to use it as a weapon.

"C'mon we were just having fun" he said.

"YOU WERE HAVING, YOU, YOU TRIED TO-" 

'But you knew, you knew right? What were you expecting' her brain had a voice and was talking way too loudly for her liking.

"SHUT UP" she said.

"FLOCH JUST, WHA, WHAT DO YOU WANT?"

She was so scared, she felt like she was being robbed by a thief, she felt like a whole day has passed since they entered the room.
She was starting to sweat, her brain couldn't understand what was happening.

"NO PLEASE JUST, I WAS" she said trying to make a full sentence.

"It's okay just take it off" he said taking a glance at her dress.

"No, no, no, I don't, please" she couldn't look at him.

"I SAID TAKE IT OFF" he replied now looking at her directly.
She couldn't see him, she didn't want to, but the girl could feel his gaze on her body.

"Please" she mumbled, she didn't want to cry.

"If you won't take it off, then I will" he said.

Her mind could't explain this, was he actually about to do that?

He started getting closer, and closer.

"No, no, just- please" she whispered.

'Just ran away please just move' she thought.

And she did, she tried at least.

With her right heel she hit him, "FUCK!" Floch said grabbing her dress.

"GET AWAY!" she screamed again.

Her dress broke almost completly, he saw her whole chest.

'He saw me' she thought.

She didn't have time to cry, she unlocked the door and ran away while trying to keep her dress together.

Floch was still chasing her.

And Eren was still making out with Historia when he realized that she wasn't there anymore.

She never came back.