April 17, 2021
when i become distance ill be wrong, everyone got so much to say. weird vibes & etc will make me fall back quick. I'm not a people person but i am like I can be around folks but ion like being around ppl for long after awhile i observe and start peeping funny shit. Im very much cool with being by my lonely . ppl who kno me kno im a distance person, I'll distance myself quick and I be going through it with myself. Ion be needing the extra jus because im in my own space dont mean im funny acting fax, cause ill show you how "funny acting" i can get. Than there so many people that should of been cut out my life but I'll always see the good in mfers ! I hold back my thoughts when it comes to alot of shit ... I would fall back w no explanation thats jus how i am. Most of the time i fall back is because im tryna find myself. I get so caught up with help everyone and im not even helping myself. I use to be afraid to be alone afraid to be left behind lmfao and once the shit happen I got use to it .. now it jus ok. shit happens and i know . we shouldn't question i know . but dis pain dis hurt isnt fair I be so damn rey to give up like literally im at the verge of saying fuck it is what it is. I wanna be so successful in life but i cant even feel myself striving for shit. I have my times but my times are starting to weigh out the good , sometimes i get tired of being dark but I'm also starting to be so use to it. Im very much okay I will always be .. Im jus human, shit hurts and sometimes I need to type or write it before I break..
