under the cherry blossom tree|| budo x taro||

part 3

Akademi,
Martial Arts Room
Week 3, Monday 13

Taros pov

The atmosphere feels so awkward now, he has noticed ive been acting strange..its gonna be okay Taro! Dont panic it will be fine..deep breathes..
Its okay Taro you got this!

"Hey senpai..i got a question.." i choke it out finnaly "please dont think of it weirdly okay?" "Ofcourse what is it Taro?" Budo chuckles
Hes so cute when he chuckles like that i wanna make him m- No taro. Stick to the subject not your fantasies...

"So uhh whats your sexuality?"
"Sexuality?"
"Yeah.." i look away trying to hide my red face
"Oh, im straight" my heart dropped. But what was i expecting? Its not like he was going to tell me he was gay out of nowhere or something. Taro this is the answer you expected to get. Dont cry.

"I-i see" my voice cracked. Why am i crying? I feel so stupid..why do i feel like i got punched in the heart when he said that? Its the answer i was expecting..i have to calm myself down before he sees my tears.

"Taro? Are you alright?"
"I-im okay"
"Look at me"
my head was turned away from him, he cant see me breaking down after telling me his sexuality..i feel so dumb right now. There was no chance from the start..i was just giving myself hope

"Look at me, please"
I still have my head turned away from him
"Comeon Taro dont mess with me like this~!"

Why did he have to whine like that? It makes me imagine really weird things...if i stay here any longer ill do things i regret, Why am i so difficult..?

More tears fell down as Budo spoke trying to get my attention "Taro dont make me use force on you okay? It will be better for us both to go the easy way dont you think?" Why was that hot..yet scary? please use your force on me in be- Taro. He just told you he's straight stop thinking this way..you used to be so different..a happy, smart guy who loved to read books.

I wipe my tears but they wouldnt stop flowing, my stomach was turning and i felt weak from trying to keep my cries silent

3rd person

Taros head was down, Budo tried all sorts of things but Taro wouldn't listen. He even tried to get up and move around to see his face but he wouldnt move.
Then suddenly, Budo grabbed Taro by the jaw
There faces where close, very close. One wrong move and who knows what could happen

Taro was recreating the image in his head
What if they where to kiss right now? Or something more..

Taros pov

"Senpai..let go of me please" i looked at him with sad eyes "Not untill you tell me whats wrong." He said with a cold tone "its no big deal senpai. We should head to class soon.." "dont change the subject. Tell me what's wrong, we're friends right?" Ofcourse we are but i wish we where more than that..

"Its nothing" i fake a smile, Budo lets go of my jaw and i look at him "lets go to class" i say as the bell rings

We head to class silently.. none of us say anything
my hand accidentally brush againts his, Budo grabs my hand and i look at him, he smiles, he's so adorable how can i not like him? so this is how its gonna be now..ill cry over my best friend every day until he suddenly tells me hes gay or something like that.

He holds my hand, why? "Come on Taro stop day dreaming! Lets get to class before we're late" oh. I thought- nevermind..

Budo drags me to class, the teacher is already there (surpisingly)

I sit in my seat and complete all the tasks, since i finished 20 minutes early i started day daydreaming and i started to fall asleep
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Martial arts club

"Mgh..~ Budo~!"
Budo chuckles as he bites onto my neck "stop being so loud Taro you dont want anyone to hear us right~?" Budo looks up at me while my arm is covering my eyes. "More...please!" He sucks onto my collarbone "mghh.." My head hits the wall while Budo slowly pushes me againts it, his knee in between my legs giving me something to edge myself on. I grind on his knee slowly while he starts to give me hickeys on my neck "Senpai~! Please..ngh i need m-more of you~!" "Dont get to greedy or you'll get nothing" Budo chuckles and i look at him with pleading eyes "p-please let me suck on y-"
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"Yamada! Youre in class not at home." The teacher yells at me "A-ah im sorry Ms Kanokogi i finished all the tasks you set.." "please refrain from falling asleep during class. You have break and home for that." "I understand" nodding my head as i open my book

that dream..felt so real? i look around the class, nothing unusual, it was just a dream after all..hah.. i see musume writing a note. it flies onto my desk so i open it

Im guessing you had a good dream? ;)
-musume

My face goes red, how would she know..and whats with the smirk i look at her clearly panicking
"stop panicking dumbass, next time dont whine so much" she laughs and i look down in embarrassment
"by your face right now Im guessing you enjoyed it wayyy too much" she laughs more and i turn even more red

Class ends
Musume and i are still talking about it, i havent noticed that Budo was hearing most of it.. and i couldnt really control what words come out of her mouth. She forcefully made me tell her what it was about and she laughed even more "so youre that type of guy? Innocent but reallyyy lonley and horny for thier best friend huh?" She said loudly "keep your voice down.." i look away from her hoping Budo wasn't eavesdropping

"Yesss ofcourse Taro whatever you sayy" She grins while packing her books into her bag. Budo comes up to my desk "lets go home" i smile at him and nod "Ooooo~~" Musume chuckles "its not like that Musume, im not gay" as he said that my smile slowly faded, that dream sort of..gave me hope in a way..

"Stage 1: denial" She says and Budo chuckles "i promise its not like that me and Taro are just friends right Taro?" "Ofcourse..haha.." i force out a laugh and look down "ouchhh friend zoned..dont worry Taro I've been there! Anyways im off now! Bye love birdsss" She leaves and i look down again. She was right i was being friend zoned all this time..

It was just us in the class now as most people where either going home, cleaning or doing special activities in clubs. Our practice got cancelled beacuse other people needed to use the garden and our club room.

"What is Musume talking about..im guessing the popularity really got in her head after all..like what did she mean by love birds" Budo laughs "Im not even gay what is she on about" he grins and i stand there silently, holding back tears

i have an urge to tell him that i love him..all these years ive been blinded by our friendship...Everytime he says hes not gay i fight the urge to not cry..is he really testing me right now..does he want to see me breakdown infront of him so bad? Please Budo..stop hurting me like this..i understand already..you're not gay..i have to settle down with my thoughts and the face the facts.