under the cherry blossom tree|| budo x taro||

Part 13

Akademi
Lunch
Week 3, Wednesday 15th
Time skip cause class is boring
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Taros pov
I happily wait outside for Budo while he packs his stuff back into his bag, I've been thinking about making him aware of how I feel but is it too soon?
He leaves the classroom and smiles "Let's get going Taro" being close to him makes me really happy, I love being near him, I hate when he's not with me, I hate when I see him happy with someone else that isn't me, I hate when he looks at people the same way he looks at me but I just love his presence with me, I love the way he has his bandana wrapped around his forehead and how well it just compliments him, I love how he scratches his head when he's nervous, I love when moans my na- yeah let's not get carried away. I just can't help but sound like a massive fucking simp, it helps me forget everything that has happened like getting him off the other night but it was nothing more than a helping hand of course and I've almost come clear to know that...yeah I do feel like we have a some sort of connection going on but would it be better if I gave up so it doesn't hurt us or ruin the friendship?

Budos pov
Taro seems really happy today I wonder what's got him in the mood, was it the conversation in the morning? Who knows, but I'm happy to see him happy again although I have been feeling a little well let's just say...on edge recently whenever I look at Taro I get this weird feeling in me but I don't know how to explain it, it's a mix of my stomach dropping and butterflies, never the less I think it's a good feeling because I love spending time with him and I genuinely feel like I would rather be with him than anyone else, that's normal right? Yeah we have been through a lot these past days but I do feel like it kind of my our friendship stronger and I feel like it's growing...in a good way, I guess in these 7 years I've never felt like this and whenever I look at Taro I notice things faster than I did before cause they stand out to me more often now, like how I know he hates when I'm not with him and honestly yeah it does sound toxic but it's not like I'd rather hang out with someone else rather than him anyway...but is it normal to feel like this...? I cant even wrap my head around it, I don't want Taro to see me selfish because I really value how he sees me. Though ive never felt this way towards a guy but when it comes to Taro I feel like I can  just let myself go...labels are stupid but I don't know what I even want for myself.
Before I do anything I think I should come to a conclusion with my own feelings first...gahh this is so confusing

We decide to spend lunch in the Martial Arts Club as it's kinda our spot now, it feels more comfortable than the rooftop where there's so many people probably eavesdropping on our conversations.
I look at Taro and when we make eye contact I look down immediately. It's not that I cant hold it or something of course I can! It just makes me feel kinda nervous when it's with Taro...what is this feeling,,it needs to stop before I go mad

As we enjoy our bentos and talk about this and that, the conversation flows smoothly which makes me happy because I don't need to dig out a subject from my ass so we can actually have some sort of conversation.

It's not that I have a problem with Taros bad days. I can't really complain when he's in a mood, obviously as his best friend I try to make him feel better but sometimes I feel like I'm the cause of those problems in a sense? So it doesn't really flow the way you'd want a conversation to flow. Random pauses and awkward silences, even after 7 years it's still common when Taro has those kinda days, it's rare that I have them but if I did I wouldn't wanna burden Taro with issues or something like that it already seems like he has so much going on but I can't really figure it out. I really would want to figure myself out before doing anything out of the blue.

"So Senpai, do you know where Ayano is?"  "Not at all she's so busy these days she rarely has any time to text us" Taro chuckles, "Yeah it has been quite abit since we properly all hung out" "yeah...but I like it like this" I mumble, thinking out loud "hm?" "Nothing, I was just thinking" "ah right "so what do u wanna do after school, your mum doesn't come back till like Saturday or Sunday right?" "Yep" "How about you stay at mine then? Since I stayed at yours last night" "sure but what would your mum say about it?" "She wouldn't care, it's not like she's home  that much anyways"  "Alright then"