♠︎ VENEREAL ── | JJK FF

𝗖𝗛𝗔𝗣𝗧𝗘𝗥 𝟭𝟵

𝒀/𝑵 𝑷𝒐𝒗

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"So Y/n how did you meet Jungkook?"

She asked while cutting her steak into square pieces, her curious gaze fixed on my figure seeking answers.

"U-um H-he was actually my teacher in school"

No matter how much I attempted to keep my voice steady it broke down, the pain in me expanded making me frail to my knees.  Only I know how bad I controlled myself from breaking down right there and then. How I was so covetous for love that I blinded myself from the truth.

"Oh, That's great, So what are you doing here?"

"I-um, really, um I was here to celebrate my graduation ceremony with Mr Jeon as my parents are usually out of sight. Mr Jeon was kind enough to welcome me here so I wouldn't be alone on an imperative day"

I answered while blazing her a huge grin. How much I wish somebody might see through the pain the grin held.  Jungkook just watched being overwhelmed by the entire circumstance. I pretended to be okay all my life, this was no different. I was used to stowing away my pain behind my grin away from everyone.

"Oh My God, Congratulations Y/n, I am so sorry if your parents are not there but I am happy that you can celebrate it with us. Please approach us if you have any problems, right dear"

She took my hand in hers tenderly rubbing them while grinning at me. She is such a kind soul, she doesn't deserve this. No one does, not even me. After finishing the dishes Mrs Jeon insisted that I stay however I had to go. I had to run away from him, from everyone.

"Please take care, dear"

She said while seeing me off, Jungkook stood by the door frame looking at my figure standing all alone again.

"L-let me drop you Miss Y/n"

I gazed at him with nothing but pain, right now I can't feel anything but pain. The feeling of outrage and despise was not there in me, I misplaced it. I was in pain, my heart was in pain.

"N-no Th-"

"Please Y/n, it's late, let my husband drop you home"

I couldn't deny her request, which left me with no option but to agree to their request.

"O-okay'

Walking towards the lift, I stood there confronting the elevator to wait for it to approach. Jungkook came and stood next to me. Away from me, not like before. The man who once held me so near to him was presently so far away. The dinging sound of the lift was here, as I ventured in, taken after by him.

I could see Mrs Jeon smiling at us and seeing us off. Who shall I feel sorry for? Me Or Her? 

The entryway closed, closing us from the outside world. I didn't want to let it go, but i couldn't remain either.

"P-please let me explain, Y/n"

"I-I wanted to let you know, I-i Love you, N-n-ot her. P-please understand me, Y-y-o-oo-u me-"

"Why?"

I can't control the pain in my heart, it's hurting me so much. Hearing the door of the elevator open, I rushed out of it, not being able to stand a minute longer with him without burning myself alive with guilt. After all, no one can be blamed but me, How each time I stopped myself from questioning him thinking it will break us apart. 

When I was so blinded by my selfishness and greed of finding love that I ignored everything this man hid. All that ran through my veins was pain. Why did he have to mislead me about his marriage, why did he need to break me apart once more like everybody else?

"Why did you do that"

"Loo-k-k I didn't mean to h-hide this- but I love you baby so much"

"NO"

I snapped out at him, I was clearly so done with his bullshit

"You do not love, me You adore my body nothing more. Since if you loved me you wouldn't do this to me, you wouldn't have lied to me"

I was so crushed and broken. Just when I thought it would last until the end of time, it was taken away from me. Like always I am left once more shattered and alone in this ruthless world.

"Why did you hide it from me?"

"When I asked you if you're going to be forever why did YOU LIE, WHY WOULD YOU Let Me know You'd Remain Forever When you WILL Leave ME TOO" 

Everything was right in front of me from the very beginning, from that day I saw his wedding ring to the photo frame. The time when he got nervous while mentioning and talking about his past relationships or about marriage. I choose to ignore when everything was right ahead of me

"Please Y/n, Listen to me- I LOVE YOU"

He yelled behind me, halting, my head filled itself once more with those endless recollections of him pouring me with warmth. 

Indeed in spite of the fact that his love might not be fake, the clean paper of his trust I had is now crumbling, and it'll never go back to what it was. Each time I look back at him I will see those creases of him lying to me.

"Please, I can't live without you"

"You should learn to then"

Turning back I stared at him with an emotionless face, waiting for him to answer back to me. If I might survive my entire life without love and fondness, he should too. He just didn't play and mislead me but also his spouse.

He could have left her and then approached me, but he chose to lie to both of us. He chose to deceive, And once a cheater is always a cheater.  The question is if I will ever be able to forgive and move on. These past months I engraved him on my body and heart. How would I erase his touch and memories?

"W-what- NO, I CAN'T"

"𝙋𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙚 𝙎𝙩𝙖𝙮"

└─────── ᴀᴜᴛʜᴏʀꜱ' ɴᴏᴛᴇ ──➤

Well Well he deserved it~

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