the one that changed it all *on hold*

Denial

Ashley in bed ----------

Ashley’s pov

I stare at the bright light that’s flooding the room; I’m staring but not really seeing anything in particular. I’ve been awake for a few hours now, the thoughts of last night had kept me awake, and I just couldn’t understand it all, it felt more like a dream than anything.

The scene kept replaying in my head, Riley on top of me, as he shoved inside me, he was big too big. I’m a virgin, well was. How could I handle something like what happened.

My screams filling the rooms, how could no one hear me! Why didn’t anyone come to help me?

“Baby come one wake up” Felix started shaking my shoulder as he lay behind me; he’s not going to want me much longer. “Your mom and brother had left you loads of miss calls and text’s. Why don’t you give one of them a call back” I ignored him, I didn’t want to speak to my family or anyone for that matter. “Come on they must be worried sick” what’s there to be worried about I’m seventeen not five, this is what people my age do don’t they. Go out for a night only to return late back the next day. “I’ll call them for you, tell them you stayed here the night then”

I listened as he shuffled around the bed until I knew he was sitting with his back leaning against the headboard, a few seconds passed before I heard him speak again. “Hey hunter its Felix… yeah sorry he didn’t text you but he stayed at mine last night since it was late… I’ll tell him…”

“Your mom says see wants us back at the house for seven for diner” great I’d have to sit and pretend everything was just dandy, fantastic! “Ashley can you hear me” I listened as he got out the bed and walked around to my side before kneeling down, he brushing my longish hair out of my eyes. “Come on Ash please speak to me” I stared at his wide blue eyes that searched my face; he looked terrified, why though I couldn’t understand.

“Please, I don’t want to go” his eyes stayed on mine.

“Urm Ashley’s not feeling too good; he’s just going to stay here again tonight… I’ll let you know how he’s feeling later on Hunter… tell your mom I’m sorry we couldn’t make it… okay bye”

“Thank you” my voice broke, my throat hurt, along with everything else. But he still looked at me like I held the world in my hands.

“We need to talk about this Ash, I need to know what happened last night” I dropped my eyes; he wouldn’t be looking at me like that again if he knew. “Baby come on, please just tell me”

“C-can you come u-up here” he nodded before climbing back into bed and pulling me into his chest. “Last night I was just working as normal in the club when Steve told me I had to go work in the back rooms again, he’s had it out for me ever since he came back to the club and found out about me and you.  So I went into the back rooms expecting the sort of people that came last time, but then Riley came in with the twins, h-he handcuffed me to the bed and he he…”bursting into tears before I could finish, I couldn’t tell him but I guess he understood as he pulled me closer. “n-no one came to help me, I kept screaming but no one came”

“Oh Ash. I’m so sorry, so sorry” he repeatedly placed kisses to my hair.

“it’s not your fault” we just lay there for a while after there, be curled up to him while he rubbed my back trying to comfort me, but it did no good. I still felt disgusting! “I want a shower” I say quickly while trying to get out of the bed but Felix held me in place.

“I’ll run you a bath, just stay here” I nod and watch as he goes into the joint bathroom, he knows what happened now. What’s he going to do though!  Carry on like everything’s normal, as if none of this ever even happened? Or dump me, who wants used goods at the end of the day. The strange thing is though the latter hurts thinking about the most, I know we haven’t been together long, god I haven’t even known him that long but I honestly don’t know what I’d do without him. You see Felix has this thing where it don’t matter what’s happening, what shitty situations you’re in, he will just say something stupidly adorable and make you smile, he makes me forget all the crap I’ve been though in the past and just think about how amazing it will be to spend my life with his raven haired guy with the cheesy smile.

“your baths ready princess” he says as he comes out the bath room with a small smile on his lips, that don’t yet reach his eyes, god I want to see it reach his eyes. He come over and helps me out the bed then into the steaming bath, the lavender smelling water covers by body as I sink deep into the tub, I close my eyes and simply relax, that’s all I can do. I feel Felix’s hands in my hair rubbing the sweet shampoo into my scalp, which just helps with the whole needed to just relax thing. “look Ash about what happened, you need to report it to the police” that makes my eyes shoot open, is he stupid I can’t report it to the police, for one Riley would know it was all my fault if anything came of it and second reporting it would be outing myself to working at a gay strip club.

“I can’t!” I say matter of fact, I simply couldn’t.

“Yes you can, I’ll be there right by your side. He’s got to be stopped Ash he could go and do the same thing to someone else and as for that club you’re at it fucking needs closing down, they’ve got underage boys in there fucking like prostitutes” he lets out in one huff, “look if you don’t I will!”

“Please don’t, just let it drop”

“Let it drop you are kidding right, you were raped Ashley, by some guy who you’re going to have to see every day for the next year, he lives here you know. You’re always going to see him, maybe your walk past him in the street or in the supermarket and what you going to do. Smile and walk past. As if he didn’t fucking tied you to a bed and rape you!”

“Just shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! “I scream in his face as I jump out the bath. “I know what happened to me. Don’t you think I hate it? I feel disgusting, and what you want me to go shouting about how first I strip at a gay club of my own free will and then I let some guy fucking rape me. That’s what you want me to do go shouting about how I let some guy have his way with”

“Baby it’s reporting it to the police, everyone isn’t going to know”

“Yes they will, and you want to know why. Because of this tiny little town where you can’t even breathe without everyone knowing. So you honestly believe if I report this everyone wouldn’t know”

“Yes I do, and you’re going to report it, he’s not getting away with what he did to you”

“I’m not doing it”

“Well then I’ll do it for you”

“I’ll deny it, ill deny it all” I scream back, would I though?

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Pretty depressing chapter and it took me ages to wright as well: /

So I know its took me ages to get this chapter up but basically dug myself into a writer’s block with what happened in the last few chapters, like I’d planed this was how the story was going to go from the beginning but yeah couldn’t think how to wright this chapter.

Oh well its up now

So hope you liked it J tell me what you think and what should Ashley do???