the one that changed it all *on hold*

Could I ?

Ashleys pov

My eyelids fluttered open revelling a chest that my head was resting on, I lifted my head off to look at Felix still fast asleep, his black hair was sticking up in all random directions making me smile; he looked adorable when he was asleep. I wrapped my arm around him, I couldn’t believe this was actually happening, he’d asked me out, id finally told him I really liked him, everything was perfect. I just wanted to lie here with him forever.

“ASH” perfect moment over then, hunter shoved my bedroom door open making it hit the wall with a loud thud which in return made Felix shoot up from his position, “oh crap sorry I never umm knew you two was in here” hunters face was turning a light shade of pick which properly matched my own at the moment .

“Hunter what the hell do you want?” I asked annoyed at his interruption.

“Mom wanted me to tell you breakfast is ready” his lips turned up into a smile before he opened his mouth to shout “MOM DID YOU KNOW FELIX IS IN ASH’S BED” he shouted at the top of his lungs, I wouldn’t be surprised is the whole street now knew the news. My whole face scrunched up in anger at my little brother, while Felix sat next to me laughing, how dare he find this amusing.

“Do they both have clothes on?” my mother called back up, hunter turned to look us once over before turning his head back towards the stairs.

“YEAH” he shouted again god why must he shout everything.

“Good tell them to both come for breakfast then” see and this is why I loved my mother so much, simply because she didn’t care about stuff like this, compared to a lot of mothers who would go ballistic at the news that their teenage son was in bed with another boy.  

“hunter I’m going to kill you!” I said while jumping from my bed and running straight for my brother who took of down the stairs, all I could hear was his shrikes for help and Felix’s laughter.

…

We all sat at the table me and Felix on one side with my mother and brother on the other, we were both sitting awkwardly as those two sat smiling at us, it was creepy. “Can you two please stop that it’s weird and creepy”

“it’s just I’m so happy for you both” my mother said in her sing song voice while smiling over her cupper tea, “I could tell from the moment I saw you together, that it was something special” I could feel my cheeks growing hot at her words, why do mothers always seem to embarrasses you, I guess it was payback for all those sleepless nights.

“Well thank you, it feels like something special” Felix said smiling over at my mother while he took my hand in his own.

…

We were now sitting in my bedroom watching some dvd, I had my head laying on Felix’s torso once again while he wrapped his arm around me, I loved this.

“are we going to tell people?” Felix asked out of nowhere, it wasn’t something I’d thought of, what would we tell people, what would I, I didn’t even know what I was, all I knew was that I really like Felix, when he looked at me my heart would beat just a little bit faster while my cheeks went a whole new shade darker, I loved the sound of his voice, the way he smiled. I loved when his soft lips kissed me like they had last night, or simply just when he put his arms around me, I never felt as loved as I did now with him. Did all this mean I was I love, more importantly with a guy.  I know my family didn’t care what gender the person I went with was as long as I was happy, but sadly that wasn’t the opinion of the rest of the world, especially my school. It was something that wasn’t really accepted my either pupils or teachers, the pupils would beat gay people up every day while the teachers simply turned a blind eye to it, sometimes I really hated humans, so even though I knew all this would I tell people, would I confidently walk through the hall way holding his hand and kiss his as we got to our lockers, like in all the movie, could I is more the question.

“I don’t know” I said keeping my eyes on his chest, I hated that I wasn’t brave enough to say that I would tell everyone that asked, hold his hand and kiss his whenever I wanted, while not caring what people said or did to me for that matter but that would be a lie. I didn’t want to have people shouting insults at me or beating me up simply for whom I liked, it scared me. I’m not brave enough.

“it’s okay we don’t have to figure everything out right now” there’s another real I liked Felix so much he was always so calm, even though he properly knew exactly what was going on in my head right now, he didn’t care, nor did he push me, did I really deserve someone at amazing as him.?