Sometimes I wonder why continue on with life and sometimes I am tempted to just end it all.
I think about the future of my life, and even now I'm struggling with school. So I think school later on will be even worse but really it's me that's the problem. I don't pay attention in class. I don't do some homework. And overall am just irresponsible. And when some random inconvenience like presenting a project Infront of people comes up ( like it did today ) I think what if, I just. Ended myself.
It would be so much easier plus nobody would care. But then I think again. My family would care right? And friends- I don't want them to feel sad or bad. That's mainly why I haven't done it yet that and I'm scared. I'm scared that it will hurt
Other times I think all problems in the world will be solved if I just never existed.
Even problems that don't associate with me
Such as sicknesses or depression or whatever else
I say I don't deserve to live but since life is actually hell maybe I don't deserve to die.
I'm not sure.
Anyways bye :')
