I kinda want to just smash my head into a wall
I'm so fucking stupid why can't I just be normal
Ofc I have to not try in my classes cause they don't fucking matter but then I get in trouble I can't even comfort someone
One of my friends crying and I walk past them
Wtf is wrong with me
why couldn't I have just went to help them
Nooo I have to walk by because I don't know how to help
I didn't even try
I'm such a bad friend
My dad is right
I never listen to him
Why don't I he's obviously correct about everything
Calling me lard-ass
I mean he has that right too
I want to bang my head on the wall
I want to sh but I'm too fucking scared to
I want to just die
If I ever commit suicide I hope nobody cares
But of course they would
I keep thinking they wouldn't but once I think about it they would
I'm only here because
1. I'm too much of a pussy to actually commit suicide
2. I don't want others sad about my death
But what if they don't care
What if they're all just faking it
What if they are actually deeply bothered and annoyed by me
What if they think the same way I do about myself
That I'm ugly disgusting horrible should die
I wouldn't be surprised
Also my addiction to the internet
Why can't I be normal and enjoy other things
But all I ever do is be on the internet
God, I hope the most terrible things happen to me
I want these thoughts to stop
Why can't I just think normal things
What do normal people think about
I want to think about that
