To New Beginnings Again...

Chapter 9

A few days later I continued staying in my room. I was too ashamed to see anyone. I kept what actually happened a secret. What happened kept on playing on my head. I was dying inside. I got my message from the hospital and I was luckily clear.

I hadn't been eating. I locked myself in my room and ate once a day. My aunt and uncle were worried, but I just told them I was scared. Since I was scared they ordered a 30 something nanny. I don't even remember her name.

I had been getting calls from Ashley but I answered since I didn't want her to feel something suspicious. I sounded normal. She was very cheerful. But I felt guilty for lying and powerless. I literally wanted to kill myself. I overdosed stress and anxiety pills. But they didn't kill me.

A new alter that nobody had noticed emerged. Her name was Saige. She was suicidal. She was 17 years old. She tried self harm, but failed repeatedly.

I was lying down on my bed. What that guy said kept on emerging in my mind.

"Once you are raped, you will ALWAYS be raped."

Fear was the only thing I felt. He repeated that in my head.

"Especially with your parents reputation."

What did he mean by that? What the heck is going on?! There are a million thoughts in my head. I don't know what is going on.

"Don't miss me too much baby, I will be back for you and your p***y."

"Cause there are many men who are hungry and thirsty for cuties like you."

What did he mean by that? Are there other people who want to rape me? But why? They don't know me?!

My head started paining from the constant thoughts. I decided to take a long shower.

I felt fear again like I was being watched. It was 12.00pm.

I got out of the shower and with a towel covering my body I went downstairs. I looked tired. My eyes were baggy and puffy, but I was too tired to care. I couldn't even brush my teeth looking myself in the mirror. I only saw a weak, powerless, pathetic hypocrite.

I went downstairs and greeted the nanny babysitter or whatever. I didn't want her, but my aunt was persistent.

I took a cereal'Lucky Charms'my favourite and ate it. It didn't taste well.

My aunt took 3 days off with my uncle so now they had to go back to work. I continued on chewing my cereal as I scrolled through my phone. Nothing interesting. Then I saw a video tape from the unknown messager.

It was about me. I was on the and was crying in pain as they... As they freakin raped. I didn't watch it all. It was 30 minutes long!!! So I was raped for thirty freakin minutes. And I only watched it for only 40 seconds and I cried in shock and terror. They were recording me!?

I finally answered back angrily. My nanny was gone to buy groceries. I was yet left alone. I received a call. I cried as I rejected it. It was an unknown caller. But I knew whom it was.

It kept on ringing up until I gave in.

"What Do You Want From Me!?" I shouted angrily.

"Woah woah there... Slow down cutie pie... So did you receive my video..?" He said in a chilled deep voice. It was obvious it wasn't his real voice.

"Yes... And what do you want from me!??!" I asked panicked.

"I want pleasure."

"..." I said nothing in reply but silence. Pleasure was this guy insane!? I wasn't going to give him that!

"I want to see you in pain... I won't hurt you, but I want you."

"A-a-and w-what if I say no..?" I stammered.

I could hear him softly chuckle. "Well that's easy... I'll post all these pictures into the internet and let the whole world see what you've been up to. And I'm pretty sure your aunt would be very disappointed to find out that her so called niece has been taking pictures of herself just to get money and most of all. To find out her daughter has been sleeping with old men to get cash..."

"But that's not true!! I was raped and you know that and I've been sexually assaulted by you and your minions!!!" I shouted.

"Yes, you and I know that... But what about the rest of the world. Will they believe what you say or what they think they saw?"

I froze. He was right. Nobody was going to believe me.

"And especially with your disorder they'll think your alter did those, since they are too stupid to know what actually happens when someone has DID or how it actually feels like. And you know how judgmental people can be. So what do you say..?"

I froze knowing he was right again. He had struck the nerve.

"Don't worry... I'll give you some time to think about it..."

And with that the call ended. I hadn't even noticed the doorbell ringing. That's when I had a mental breakdown. I cried as I panicked. I covered my face with my hands.

What was I going to do..?

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