What Now?

Years later and im back

No idea why i even started this but I've seen how much I've grown.

Update:
I have a 2year old and I'm 21years old now!
Im a single mom :) more happier now.

So much mystery in my past "chapters" i have no idea what i was talking about and i have no memory of any of it.

I was sexually abused as a child and i guess this was my way of  distracting myself. Also... not a very great app to be on when you've been sexually abused and are not curious about sex these books i had archived.. sheesshhhh.

Anyways i guess this time ill just talk about my experience as a child i probably should have written about that before because my brain has now decided to block most of what happened maybe i would have had a lot more to remember to validate that i am not lying to myself or something i don't even know what I'm saying really..

Long story short once i told my mom i went to therapy but nothing moved passed that because i was a child and i didn't talk about anything so they ruled it out as me making it up.. crazy how this system works don't you think? I mean a literal child went through this from the age of 6-8 years old and you expect her to say everything off the bat? Come onnnn and they never once asked me what happened, where did it happened, how many times, how far did it go. Nothing. Makes me wonder how many kids and families thought they were getting help but really didn't get anything.

Ill speak more about this on my next "chapter" again not much memory about it due to my brain blocking the traumatic memories but theres some there and maybe with me writing this and showing awareness some of you can speak up? Or talk about it here with me. That is if anyone actually reads this. Either way it'll help me jog my memory.

Thanks for reading my rant,
Bri