What Now?

Thursday July 21,2016

Update on the situation:

I told my actual crush i like him i know im stupid huh well i felt like it was time bc ive held it in for so long the only problem is that my cousin use to have a thing with him. I told him really late at night and he responded the next day he asked what my cousin would say about the situation and i paniked so i made it into a joke and he ended up asking me out but i thought he was joking so u made it into a joke again well we then started having awkward conversations and soon it ended up being really late replies on his behalf until one day the tet messages and calls stopped i took it well actually my friends where there for me and i kept telling myself i didn't care, it didnt affect me.. but 2 days later i cried i couldnt hold it in anymore i kept remembering our conversations the way he would call me baby but in a friendly way and i took it the wrong way i reread our text messages and remembered the first day we met he was with my cousin at the time and i went with her bc they wanted us to meet and i remembered how i kept making my cousin nervous and i joked that i saw him walking towards us so i ducked down to make it look real and ended uo seeing feet comming toward us so i screamed and she pulled me back we ended u walking forward still not knowing who it was until i saw him i had also paniked that day and i wore a hoodie so i put it up and avoided him but we ended up talking more and more text messaging turned into phone calls which turned into meet ups which turned into him calling me baby and us being inseparable and now we dont talk