Don't you find it annoying?
how badly you want to feel the
lyrics on a song not just its beat,
how you adore those poem's line
without actually feeling it,
how intense the feeling you consumed
when you came into realization that
the man you admire so much is just fictional
– and yet,
won't even dare to make a move to have
your own love story.
It's funny;
how you romanticize those
but afraid to make a first move to have one.
Your inner romance kept on shouting
"I want to be love!"
but then when someone showed interest,
you were like inside "no, not you"
Well girl,
that's not because you're way too ideal
or your creating your expectation with
a fictional theme.
No, it's not like that.
Know why you crave with relationship
but won't make a jump?
Because you only want someone
but you're not yet ready;
it is the experience that excites you,
not the commitment.
do you think you will ever be?
Well, that's a long story to tell.
As of now,
the reason of your confusion is
not because you have a cloudy standard
but because you're just curious about
how it feels to dance with someone after a rain,
watch the moon glows at different phases,
eat on a nice place and shares comment about it,
get excited to wake up,
miss him when you needed to sleep,
how the pressure devour your system for buying
a gift on special occasions,
and to feel the feeling of having someone
to share your day with.
It's curiosity not actually a craving;
because if it is really a craving,
you'll make a move.
But no, you're not even too stirred
to go out of your safe zone.
To make things clear,
you're yearning only for the 'feeling'
not for the person exactly.
So don't rush.
Chill,
darating din 'yung taong sasaktan ka.
