No matter how you wanted to feel it,
do not jump.
Sure, falling in love is like ineffable
– but the things that follows, trust me,
it's a constant nightmare.
It's like both a blessing and a curse
but you don't know which one comes first.
It's fun dancing under the rain,
feeling of petrichor automatically welcomes you,
the thunder seems dancing with you;
but after this meraki experience, what comes next?
Sickness.;
a sudden flu,
a reason why our parents prevent us from
going out while raining way back then.
Same goes with loving when fate jokes harshly on you.
It will consume you.
You will see the world with new perspective,
a blue one.
The constant urge to escape the sadness will hunt you
– but there's no exit here.
you have to feel everything 'till it numbs you.
New episodes of anhedonia will come on your way
and you have no choice but to carry it everyday.
