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|| Caleb's p.o.v ||

My parents still don't know. They don't know I'm dating Kyle, anyone actually. They think I'm still single and they're now trying to arrange a date for me with their friend's daughter, Jenna. She actually scared me, she was loud and she was very "defensive". By that I mean she completely misunderstands people and she acts like she's protecting herself against criticism when all the people she's lashed out at are just doing their jobs. I felt bad for them, just because they suggested a pretty dress cause it matches her eyes doesn't mean they were body-shaming her. People who always assume things were not my favorite kinds of people. Them and the jerks who lash out on others because they wanna seem cool and strong.

"Come on Caleb, one date won't kill you," My mother said as she fluffed my hair as if I were going on a date right now. I shook my head and looked up at her before saying, "Mom, I wanna pick the girl myself. Jenna she's... not my type." It wasn't completely a lie, she wasn't my type at all but the lie within my sentence was the fact I was going to choose a girl to be my lover.

"How can she not be? She's beautiful and smart."

"Not to be mean but she's not the brightest with other people. She assumes they're body-shaming her or criticizing her highlights..."

"Ugh, body-shaming. We all have to love ourselves or we won't love anyone else because we're so focused on our appearance," My mom started. As she continued talking about the topic, I started to wonder if my words were equivalent to a fly. Just tiny and incoherent. I still don't like Jenna and she's not understanding my obvious hint towards that. I sighed lightly and I just wanted to text or call Kyle. He's been slowly getting better as the days pass. Kyle had apologized to Peter and they're on okay terms but Kyle was still a little possessive. I don't understand why, it's not like I'm going to intentionally flirt with anyone else. I know he wants to protect me from those types of people that I get but I don't understand any other reason.

I was allowed to go to my room after my mom was done telling me about the arranged date next week. I know I shouldn't disobey my parents but I'm not going on the date. I'm going to avoid Jenna as much as possible, she's like a very scary bug with a lot of makeup. Maybe a tarantula is more accurate. I shivered and wanted to gag at the thought of us, together. First the relationship between her and I would be very weird, secondly it made me uncomfortable, and thirdly this whole arranged date made me wish I had parents who supported the LGBTQ community and were perfectly fine with me dating Kyle. He was way better than Jenna. He made me feel loved and special and Jenna made me want to hide under my blankets with headphones over my ears. One time she swiped her brown hair back a bit to hard and I got some in my mouth, her nails are scary too. They're the long nails you get at the nail salon. How do people even do stuff with those, they're freaky!? I know some people like them but I can't help it, I don't wanna be around those nails. I have a pretty good reason why they scare me and why I think they're freaky,

I texted Kyle a small hi. Big long texts weren't my thing since I didn't have much to text about or complain about but I liked reading Kyle's texts. If I was home and I can't hang out with him, the texts made me feel close to him. Kyle did say I should have a "sleep over" with him to get away from my parents for a night or a few days. By sleep over he meant hanging out and cuddling, nothing explicit. I wasn't ready for that especially doing head again. That kind of hurt my throat.  When the time is right and if I had to do that again, I hoped Kyle would go slower and less hard. I wasn't really into rough treatment, I liked things slow and soft. It may not be Kyle's style but if he did care about me, he'd respect my wishes. If he didn't respect them then that's a big red flag. I'd have to talk with him tonight when I see him because if my mom checked my messages and saw me talking about being treated gently, she'd find out we were together.

I couldn't let that happen since who knows what dad and her would do. I could be forced to move to another state with them or be forced to go to a correction camp that my dad would drive me to. He knew a place, a friend who works there, so it shouldn't be hard to put me in there. In my opinion, I think I'm doing okay in hiding Kyle's and my relationship. They hadn't suspected a thing since they do confront me if they think I'm doing something wrong. One time they thought I snuck out to go to my friends late birthday party but I was just out in the backyard taking out the weeds since I had forgotten to do that earlier in the day. I wasn't really a rule breaker but going out with Kyle, to them that's a very huge sin that I don't want to stop committing. I love Kyle and he made me feel safe and happy. To me, it wasn't a sin. It was just love. And my mom told me love worked in mysterious ways, I think she was just hoping I'd fall in love at first sight with a girl though. That sounds like a fairy tale rather than real life, although I don't have anything against fairy tale's. Other than the fact it always has a happy ending. I wish life was like that. Where Kyle and I were accepted by my parents and we go drive off into the sunset.

Sadly that couldn't happen. Life's unfair and we have to stick with that. I texted Kyle that next week I was going on an arranged date but I also texted that I wouldn't go because I really didn't like Jenna. Kyle was curious and asked why. I gave him all the reasons why and they were logical. It wasn't because she was too skinny or her nails were too long. It wasn't even because her eyes seemed slanted. It was just because of her personality. People look how they look, I don't judge but they have control on how they act and how Jenna acted... it was ugly. If I was straight and if she was actually kind, I'd consider her as an option. But if I were just plain straight, I would want to find another girl as fast as possible before we even went on that "date". By that I mean her talking all the time and not giving me a chance to even answer a question she asked me. Kyle texted that he understood and she sounded like a b-word. Hey, even in my thoughts I can't curse. Don't judge me, I was raised to be polite and to not curse. I typed in that she may be but I hoped she changed or else she'd waste money to look like a Kardashian. A fake woman, my mother said and showed me. The women did not seem like good people, just a drama filled family. I wouldn't want to be famous for having a sex video. Never ever. 

If I were to be famous, I would want to be known for helping people cause other lives matter. Not showing your bare naked tush out in public. Even Kyle says that having a video like that is just stupid. It is! Would you want people asking you if you want to sleep with them? It's barbaric. If someone was recorded with no consent that you can make a big deal out of that, especially if you want to help take that down. I do understand however that some people do it as a job, which I question about, so I can't judge if that was their choice. Kyle decided to change the subject which I was thankful for since my face was red at the memory of my mom telling me about a Kardashian only getting famous for that video. We talked about some better things like what we would do on our "guys night out". He knows I like cookies so he suggested a Marvel movie with three different types of cookies, which I can't say no to. He was trying to help me branch out into different types of movies and most of the ones we picked together were pretty good. The Infinity Wars was sad I have to say. "Caleb, dinner," My mom called out. I texted to Kyle that I would be back and head downstairs to eat. I go over to the kitchen and get the silverware and napkins before I asked, "Hey momma, can I go hang out with my friend tomorrow. We're gonna have a guys night." She looked at me before saying, "Yeah of course! The more guy friends you have, the better. Maybe they'll suggest going out to the gym one day."

Somedays I think my mom is blind. She bared a child that literally has noodle arms and can't lift a gallon of milk without staining a little. I'm a soft guy, I don't do workouts. I'm romantic, kind, and above all, I'm a wiener. That I'll admit with no shame cause well... it's true. I really am. Liam said that it's good Kyle was the strong one, he was tough for me and I balanced Kyle out because I made sure he was considerate of others. He even said that Kyle had changed because of me. For a long time, Kyle never really apologized after he knocked someone's books out of their hands, Liam said. It was unintentional of course but now he apologizes when he does that. I'm glad Kyle has been getting better with his manners but I still feel weak. I don't have the courage to even yell at my mother 'No' to that arranged date. God, I really wish I grew a backbone. 

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A/N: Hey Readers, I am so very sorry that I haven't been updating. I have been so busy with school, finishing something in order to graduate, medicine things, and I have been exhausted. But without further ado, I present to you a chapter.