I'd Rather Die Than Be A Girl

Prologue

I guess this is the part when I introduce myself huh?

Well, I'm Matthew, Matt for short. I'm 16, brown eyes, brown hair. I'm not as tall as I should be for my age. All the other guy's my age are like a a few inches to foot taller than me, but it's fine. I'm not athletic either. If I even tried, I'd probably get my ass whooped by those other guys. They don't look at me with respect, I'm short and not like them. I'm literally not like them. Because, physically... I'm not male. I am a female. A disgusting, puny, weak female. I dress like a boy, cut my hair like a boy, because i don't want another boy to ever look at me as a girl. I don't want another boy to ever be attracted to me. I'm not saying I want a girl to be attracted to me either. I don't like girls.

I know, you're asking yourself, "Why don't you want another boy to be atrracted to you?" I'll answer so you shut up already.

I was formely known as Leah, and 15 year-old average girl living happly with her single mother. One day, at school Leah met a boy named Zakkary. He was so cute to her, I guess the feeling was mutual with him. After meeting each other they learned to both like each other even more.

After a few days the began to date. Leah knew for sure that this guy was her Mr. Right, Stupid dumb bitch. She even introduced him to her mom. One day, Leah's mother had to leave for a few days for a job interview in a nother city, and Leah had to stay with her grandparents. Leah and Zakk devised a plan for her to be able to stay with him. They succeded. Leah was able to stay with her boyfriend alone at her house. She should've seen it coming. I mean they had planned it together, so why would she back out from having sex with him?

He couldn't wait anymore. He began to undress her. She was in the mood and went along with it for a few seconds, but she began to get scared.

She told him "I'm not ready..."

He just looked at her and laughed. He said "Do you honestly think I care if you're ready?"

She looked at him with teary eyes. "Well, I did think you would care. I am your girlfriend aren;t I? Don;t you care about me"

He just laughed at her, and that night she lost her virginity. She was raped by him.

That night he left, and she called her mom in tears and told her everything. Her mom came hom immediately and took her.

She talked with her mom and said she was tired of boys looking at her as a girl. She was able to convince her mom to accept her a son. She enrolled Leah to a boarding school as a boy. They convinced the Dean of the school to let her live amongst the boys.

Her mom, of course disagreed with her choice, but Leah told her "If I move in with the girls than it will be obvious I am a girl'

Finally, Leah can now be at peace, She died, and Matthew was born.

Happy? There's the story. Now, I'm going to get some pizza I'm hungry.