Mʏ Pᴇʀsᴘᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ

Crying

Tears are what many people think is a sign of weakness. WRONG, a big no. Yes it is a sign of vulnerability but not weakness.

It shows that no matter what your still a human, your still alive...you still have emotions.

People try to stop themselves from crying. They stop themselves from releasing tears and bury it inside.

Don't do that. That will bottle your emotions and numb you. The numbness is petrifying. When your numb you will not feel anything. You will be emotionless for once. 

The difference between the numbness and masking your emotions is that when you mask them you can still feel them. You just don't show it on the surface. However, numbness...you don't feel anything. You are hollow. You feel void of anything. People who go through this are so desperate to feel something that they inflict pain on themself aka self-harm.

People think self-harm is wrong I think not. I mean I do it myself so I can't tell it is wrong.

Every time I cried people used to tell me that I shouldn't sit and cry. They made mean comments. I was not always an violent person, I became one. I stopped my tears and they got converted to violence. Now even if I want to cry I can't. My tears are gone, I rarely cry. The news of my friends hurt me and what might seem a normal amount of crying for some was the most I cried in the last 2 years.

I was happy that I was able to cry but another part was angry on myself for crying, for showing vulnerability. I was sad too cause my friends were leaving.

This made me want to inflict pain on myself yet again and I did, I followed what I felt and harmed myself. This is how one feels when they are doing self-harm. Personally I feel alive and happy as I watch some blood. The harm makes me feel pain but I feel happy cause I can feel something.

Cry your heart out. Every time you want to cry CRY!! If you won't then you will be numb and your emotions will start bottling up until you have an outburst.

SEE YA

BYEEEEEEEE