so we are going to start this chapter with smut. be warned, joking its not that 18 +
his gaze over me makes me fucking wet, i cant stop thinking about him fucking me, ''fuck it'' he mutters under his breath. he grabs my face, holding my neck with his hand, he smashes his lips into mine, they tast like mints. i love it. his tongue aginst my bottom lip, i open my mouth feeling his tongue against mine, we both stop out of breath. ''i waited a long time for that''he says. ''really.'' ''yeah, i couldnt stop thinking about you since that party.'' ''me too.'' i smile. ''so um, i have an suggest.'' ''tell me, i say ''i dont do relationships, but i do have my needs.'' ''sooo...
you are asking me to be sort of ''friends with benefits''. ''
''yeah'' i think about it, he's hot and i havent had sex in a long time. but i wonder if it stays sex and i dont get feelings for him. A voice in my head says it's not a good idea and he would hurt me but, I don't listen to it. "Okay" "wait really?" Yes. He smashes his lips into mine again, "remember I told you at the party that we were going to finish that." "Yes, I do" "hell yes, let's do it" he groans. His hand slides under my shirt, making me gasp. I haven't been touched for so long man. He grabs it and gets it of me in 2 seconds. He wispers "oh fuck" biting his lip, he grabs my tits, unclips my bra. "My turn" I grab the bottom of his shirt getting it of him. I let my hands trace over his abbs, making eye contact "I can't wait to fuck you." " get you're pants off " I unbutton my jeans, letting them fall to my ankles. He undoes his belt. Groaning. " I can't wait any longer" he pushes me on the bed hovering over me. He starts sucking my neck, making me bite my lip to stop my sounds escaping from my mouth. His finger slides over my bottom lip, releasing it from my teeth. " I want to hear your moans" he kisses my boobs, sucking my nipples. He kisses my thighs making my pussy begging to be touched. I tild my head back. He grabs my panties and gets them of. He looks for a condom, and lets his boxer fall to his ankles. He's big. Like huge. "You're big" he smirks. Ohhh this is bad for his ego. He pins my arms down and puts his tip at my entrance, I know this I going to hurt. He slides in slowly, when he's halfway I say. " I don't think I can take you" i wisper " you can take it. Just be a goodgirl" he now fully inside me, stretching me out. He kisses me, the kiss is full of lust. He starts pumping inside me, I arch my back trying to get away from him, feeling pain mixed with pleasure. He pulls out but then slams inside me again. my head is empty i dont think about me having sex with someone who will never feel anything more for me. i can only think about the feeling of him pumping inside me. grabbing my hips tight, making the hottest sounds i've ever heard. i arch my back moaning his name. ''jason''i moan. ''fuck do that again'' he groans. i do it again. he makes eyecontact with me. one hand slides to my boob, squeezing it. harder. faster. my pussy hurts, from it. but i love it. im going to cum. i moan. i feel the release in my stomach, getting lower. when i hit my highest point. ''oh fuck''. he doesnt stop no, he starts fucking me even harder, tilding his head back, pinning my hips into the mattres. he cums with a load groan.
he rolls of me, we are both sweaty. ''fuck that was the best sex i ever had.'' it was, a guy never had fucked me like this. he smiles at me.
pov jason
she stares at me with her beautiful hazel eyes, there is so much tension between us. but when i feel like the eyecontact becomes to intense, i look away and say something stupid ''adora, you should go now.'' ''what. why'' ''i said go'' i clench my eyes shut. i hear her grab her clothes and walk out of the room. i slam my face with the pillow. i cant do this. i cant get close to someone anymore. i wont. it only hurts eventually.
pov adora
what the fuck. what the fuck. i keep repeating in my head. what is that fucking guy doing. how dare he to just tell me to get out of there, like what the fuck. look i didnt had feelings, during the sex. like i just wanted to fuck because it was a long time ago okay. but, im not going to let him only play with me. for fucks sake. the problem is. i did say yes. to the thing yk. i sigh. i always make the stupidst fucking desicions. bruhh. when im home i open the fridge, i need food. i dont have anything nice. we are ordering pizza. i wonder how im not fat yet. i think about this afternoon. i didnt ask him questions didnt i. we just fucked. i sigh. pizza is in half an hour. i grab some wodka. and a glass. i put on some chase atlantic. and then grab a cigarette. when i am like this, life is good. when im fucking everything up its not. point is , im drinking that second feeling awayyyyy. i smile. love this. ring. pizzas here bitches. i open the door. really . jason. ''what the fuck are you doing here'' i kinda stutter, ''are you drunk'' ''thats not an answer to my question'' ''yours isnt one too'' ''no shit'' i sigh, i thought it was the pizza, im dissapointed now. 'he laughs. ''theres nothing to laugh about, since you just send me out of the house, after fucking.'' ''yes, uhm im sorry about that, i didnt want any feelings to catch by'' ''no shit, you wanted friends with benefits, or did you wanted , no eyecontact with benefits'' works for me tho, i'll just fuck you without looking. cant be sure if i will come.'' ''look adora im sorry, i wont do it again''
''sure, tomorrow here at 7 pm. now get out and let me wait for my pizza.'' ''okay, bye'' that showed no emotion. is he hurt. nahh. after 5 minutes my pizza is there, and i eat like i havent had food in 2 weeks. yum. good as fuck.
kinda short chapter sorry . bye
xxx m
YOU ARE READING
Messing with my head
Romanceshe had no job, was done with school ,had an history in the maffia. right now, depressed, had an addiction to alcohol .and had nothing to live for after her mother died. but what happens when she meets jason black, the current leader of the italian...
