If You Love Her || Tommyinnit

Three

She always has trouble falling asleep

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[ Back To December - Taylor Swift ]

"Is it filming?" Fallon asked, looking up at the blonde.

"Yeah. The red light is on and look, we're in the viewfinder." Tommy replied. Fallon nodded and pulled up the voice memo. The song started playing throughout the car, her phone still being connected to the bluetooth.

"Oh, this song is in my playlist. It's something December by T Swift. Big Q's wife." He said with a smile. He genuinely liked the song as a whole. It sounded off to him, but he hadn't paid attention to it. He just listened intently. Fallon sat there, trying not to cry as she remembered the exact day this happened. Her feelings were overwhelming her so she decided to sing a cover to the song she'd had on repeat for days.

I'm so glad you made time to see me. How's life? Tell me, how's your family? I haven't seen them in a while.

Tommy smiled as he heard the lyrics. If he had heard this song a few months back, he would have had a breakdown. But now with the girl in his arms, wrapped in a blanket, all he can feel is overwhelming joy.

You've been good, busier than ever. We small talk, work and the weather. Your guard is up and I know why.

"This sounds different, but it's really good. I like it. I really do like this song."

Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind. You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

"It's not sung by Taylor Swift. It's a cover I have in my phone of it."

So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying i'm sorry for that night. And I go back to December all the time.

"Oh? Who's it sung by?"

It turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

"I'll tell you afterward, babe."

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright. I go back to December all the time.

"Alright."

These days, I haven't been sleeping. Staying up playing back myself leaving. When your birthday passed and I didn't call.

Fallon closed her eyes, holding back her tears as the pain connected to the song was coming back full force.

Then i think about summer all the beautiful times. I watched you laughing from the passenger side and realized i loved you in the fall.

"Are you okay, Lilah?" Tommy whispered, hugging her closer to him.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind. You gave me all your love and all I gave you was, goodbye.

"Yeah, Tom."

So this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying im sorry for that night. And I go back to december all the time.

"I'm okay." Fallon finished after taking a shaky breath.

It turns out freedom aint nothing but missing you wishing i'd realized what i had when you were mine. I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind. I go back to December all the time.

"Alright, love."

I miss your tan skin. Your sweet smile. So good to me. SO right. And how you held me in your arms that September night, the first time you ever saw me cry.

The feelings that usually came with the song for Tommy were rushing in, but he wasn't in pain. He was proud of how far he'd come.

Maybe this is wishful thinking. Probably mindless dreaming. But if we loved again I swear I'd love you right.

"I love you."

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't. So if the chain is on your door, I understand.

"I love you too, Fallon Delilah."

But this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying i'm sorry for that night. ANd i go back to December

They finally stopped talking.

It turns our freedom aint nothing but missin you wishing i'd realized what i had when you were mine.

They finally just listened to the pain in the singer's voice.

I'd go back to December turn around and make it alright

The pain was deep, scarring. They could hear it in the cracks and in certain words.

Id go back to december turn around and change my own mind

Tommy really reconciled with the emotional value of the cover.

I go back to December all the time.

"Tommy."

"What's up, darling?" He asked, wiping his eyes so his tears didn't fall.

"I sang that."

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