Infinity

Chapter 1

I'm okay. Totally am, I mean everything's always perfect. I'm privileged, everyone always says I'm cute, sweet, pretty, beautiful, skinny, gorgeous, charming, hot, ideal. Always answering with a polite smile, a thank you and a compliment back if my mother is with me. Continue to walk and checking if the man in question decided if that was it or if I need to disappear from his sight for the night.

Today, Sunday, was no different from the others when I sat with my legs dangling and watching the view in front of me. It is truly amazing and the best place to be these warm spring nights. A small breeze buries it self in my skin and I drag the velvet red blanket tighter around my bare shoulders. It goes just lovely with my baby blue off shoulder dress. It flows down just below my knees and sits tight around my waist and chest. I always watch the sunset up here alone but I finally got Ophelia to come with me. She is quite the mystery really and quiet most of the time but she can't hide how much she loves this even if she would never admit it.

- So Fay, you like it? I ask with a big grin, she hates it when you call her Ophelia.

- You now Avery it's actually better than I thought, she admits back.

- Told you.

- Oh, shut up.

We laugh and the silence drown us again. I love silence, even if you probably never could guess it. When the silence fall so does I. My thoughts and me drown in it together. I love it, it's like a bubble where the only thing you hear is the thoughts that flow like rivers, and memories falls down waterfalls into the big sea; also called my useless brain. I hate it here but I am trying to be a good storyteller here so let's continue on my romanticized story shall we.

Silence is so underrated just as strawberries and adrenaline. When I don't watch the sunset from the rusty bridge, I balance on the railing to the other side and back again. This is the only place I can be alone. Nobody ever comes here because the road only leads into the mountains and why on earth would you want to go there. I could tell you a lot of good reasons to go there but I'm not in the mood. Ophelia's social battery is not the longest and I need those moments here alone sometimes. Loneliness can become dangerous a lot of the times though, sometimes it almost takes you with it so it won't feel so alone anymore.

- It's so high up, she breaks my thoughts.

- I know, I love it! I wish she would just pushed me down it really, or we could jump together maybe. I don't think she likes her life either so it's a win win really.

We are sitting on the only bridge in the kingdom, god I hate the word kingdom. Either way the bridge was once as red as the queens pet fox. Like a fox really, she could have chosen a snake or a tiger, but no a fox. And she really loved that fox for some weird reason. The river bellow the fox-red bridge floods and thunders during the warm summers, but in the spring it's small and peaceful. Just as my seasonal depression. Just kidding I'm depressed during all seasons. But I'm okay really. Promise. I'm sure it's more than 50 meters down to the water right now. I'm still sitting on the railing dangling my legs over the edge if you forgot and Fay is sitting below me with one leg on either side of one of the poles that keeps the railing up. It's almost too cold to sit still so I get goosebumps on my arms when the breeze hits me.

It smells incredible, the bushes, trees and flowers are just starting to bloom and the rich smells mixing together are one of my favorites. If you could make the smell into a perfume I would sell my soul for it.

In the horizon are the mountains, I've always wanted to go beyond them. It's like they are screaming for me to follow but I could never go how much I ever wanted it. I want to go so bad but I can't. I don't even think I could walk that far to be honest my feet are clearly not made for walking.