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I'm bored

Did you know this small phrase is so common to me that sometimes I say just for the sake of saying it. Seriously who does that? Apparently me! But seriously I'm bored I'm bored of the same things happening but too afraid to try things out in the open due to it being too embarrassing. Honestly my day goes like this wake up, go college and there after come home try and work , don't work and go sleep. So what I'm trying to say is I'm bored. I AM SOOOOOO BORED that even my favourite things don't even help example drawing when I'm bored I can't draw or seem to draw because i don't have any sense of imagination when I'm bored and I'm bored so often I got used to the hazy feeling of boredom just covering every neuron in my brain to the extent that I became like a she devil and even looking at someone who is fine with nothing to do hem a little brother of mine ticks me off.

So when a persons normally bored what happens is they start to think right? And when a person thinks they tend to think of everything and anything that is going on in thier live. Apparently that's not me I honestly can't seem to think when I'm bored I give you an example I was staring at a wall the other day and I thought...

Of nothing. Just stared at that creamy wall and then a Gary image came to mind and guess what it was.

It was an image of my brain like I told you it was the haziness of boredom over my mind. What the....

So anyways I was reading something the other day and they touched upon the topic of boredom and they said. 'Boredom is a very serious topic,' I thought at that moment isn't everything a serious topic if you really think about it,' boredom is what leads to people wanting to do things and thoughts that only rarely cross a persons mind, so be very careful when bored because it could lead to things that can be defined as immoral and can effect the lives of people that you don't want to hurt, it could end up ruining your lives as well.'

See what that person said is actually very true let me give you my example . When I was small I used to become easily bored, this is due to me being the only daughter, and due to the fact that I had three brothers and a family that never seemed to get tired of buying for me jewellery or clothes , I wasn't very much into clothes and make up etc. So most of the time I used to spend alone, I rarely talked to people because I never really had or still have friends that have the same interests as me. So I can naturally become bored, so this led to me thinking into things such as I'm lonely no one cares about me etc. and this naturally led to suicidal thought which is both socially and morally wrong.

But don't get me wrong because boredom can also be a very good thing, for example it could lead to you picking up at lot of skill for example I learnt how to draw and knit and weave and skim read and .......

So what I'm saying is I hate being bored and love it at the same time. But I just have to complain about because what to we English seemed to love doing is complaining about every thing. I'm just being sarcastic so don't gang up on me people.

So here is a chapter on boredom. Hope it help you do something see you next time.