I love you too idiot

He knows...

(S)He knows, (S)He knows...
TW:
Crying
Mentions of eating disorder/throwing up
Swearing
Bad memories/memories of abuse
Mentions of self harm

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No one's POV:

6:00 am

Karl wakes up feeling small breathing on his neck
he looks down to see sapnap curled up closely to
him, he doesn't want to wake the younger so he
slowly gets up, leaving sapnaps warm embrace. The
older starts getting ready he turns around to see
sapnap staring sleepily at him with an oversized
hoodie on and sweatpants "good morning sap, you
sleep okay?" "Good morning Karl, I slept alright I
guess how bout you?" "I slept great, do you mind
me asking why you slept okayish?" "Um well.. I um,
well I.." sapnap started stuttering, he didn't know
to tell Karl his nightmares and flash backs from last
night, he started panicking it was a controled panic
but he started crying from panic and sadness,
"SAPNAP WHATS WRONG?!" Karl yelled at
sapnap in concern making sapnap flinch "I umm
I'm sorry sap.." "it's alright Karl.. your just worried"
sapnap takes a while to realize that he must
respond something else as well "Um can we sit
down on bed for a bit longer please Karl?" "Um
sure" they both sit on the bed, both of them sitting
rather close to each other huddled together to
make warmth and grabbing the blanket. "Karl I
just.., remember how I told you that my dad was
very abuse towards me and my brother?" "Um yeah
why?" "Well it's just he scared me for life I get
scared of many things I've learned to control it
sometimes but that doesn't mean I that I won't get
flashbacks of the abuse, ever since I left my dads house I thought I would stop getting nightmares but they just won't stop! and I still mentally and physically remember the pain me and my brother
went through, it just. it hurts so bad.." Karl stayed
quiet for a while then got the courage to speak "oh
sap, listen to me you're far away from your dad
now, he can't hurt you much longer and if he does
I'll fucking hurt that bitch until he learns his
lesson!" Sapnap chuckles softly at that last part
"what do you think I can't take him on in a fight?!"
Says Karl pretending to be offended "no not at all
Karl I bet you could beat the shit of him and I
would be proud of you" "thank you, well we should
start making breakfast!" "Oh..." Karl looks at
sapnap once he heard sapnap say oh in a sad
disgusted voice.

Karl's POV:

I heard sapnap say oh in a sad disgusted voice, shit
I forgot about his eating disorder. So do you think..
since were already talking about you know his past
trauma do your think he's alright with talking
about his eating disorder? the thing is he doesn't
even know that I know, do you think he won't want
to hang out with me anymore because I mentioned
this to him or because I took matters in to my own
hands and just heard him throwing up and I guess
spying on him? I'm sure he'll understand that I was
just worried about him right.. I hope so.

"Sap umm do you have an eating disorder?"
Sapnap froze, trying to figure out if that's really what he just heard.

Sapnaps POV:

I froze did Karl really just ask if I had an eating
disorder, how did he know, he knows,he knows,
How does he know?! "What n-no I don't have an e-
eating disorder" I said nervously and gave him a
small awkward smile
"sap I know you have an
eating disorder, you don't have to lie to me it's
alright." "How did you... how did you know, tell me
Karl how did you know!?" Karl looked at me, giving
me a sad yet soothing smile "promise you won't be
mad?" "I promise Karl just please tell me" Karl
sighed then said " remember when you said that
you weren't hungry anymore the day that you
tweeted out that you were alright and after we
talked to our friends that we made lunch yeah, um
well you ate like a quarter of your food and after
you said that you were done... I uh.. well I followed
you to the bathroom and I heard you throwing up
plus I can see and feel how skinny you are when I
hug you." I froze again taking in all the details he
just said, should I be mad at him, I don't even know
like, I'm mad at him for not being patient with me
but then again he was just worried, friends get
worried all the time it's like when Dream and
George and bad found about my past and my eating
disorder, or when clay noticed I was cutting my
wrists, they cared and that's all that matters even
tho Karl tool matters into his own hands I
shouldn't be mad at him it's my fault anyways for not being good at keeping it a secret.

"Karl... I'm mad that you went and listened to me
throw up-" "I sorry sap I really am!" "Karl what I
was gonna say was BUT I still know that you were
just worried and when someone is worried
curiosity will get the better of them or they'll try to
help the person it's just an instinct humans have to
protect the ppl they care about I know that if you
had an eating disorder I would be so worried I
would even go as far to not let you go to the
bathroom if you only ate a quarter of your food"
"wait so your not mad at me?" "No I'm not I
promise with all of my heart that I not mad and
there shall not be a reason for me to be mad at
you!" Sapnap goes into a tight hug with Karl, they
sit there for a while hugging each other until Karl
pulls away and says
"ok so about the eating
disorder, you do realize that your skinny but it's an
unhealthy skinny, your way to skinny for your own
good" sapnap nods his head slowly trying to figure
out where this conversation is going "so I think that
we can start off small, so this morning I can give
you yogurt maybe some sliced fruit, what do you
think?" Sapnap takes a while to think if it's alright
to eat a couple of food as Karl said it's a bad skinny
that I'm in " sure, so you promise we'll start off
small until I feel comfortable enough to eat a bit
bigger portions of food?" "Mhm I promise, just
please promise you'll be ok, cause I'm pretty sure
you can die from being that skinny or get sick and
listen I don't want you to die or get sick because if
either of those happened to you I would blame
myself for not helping you enough so please promise me as well" "I promise".

No one's POV:

So just like that Sap and Karl made the bed, they
went downstairs and the older started slicing bits
of fruit for the younger, both of them chatting of
random things that came to mind.

So just like that Karl and sapnap went on with the
rest of their day, streaming for a while looking
through social media laughing at random things in
George's stream. Later they made lunch sapnap
just making some sandwiches, leading to sapnap
managing to eat half of his, its a work in progress
for him and Karl. At dinner they found whatever
they could make like said sapnap eating small
portions of food not to small just enough to almost
be finished with half of his food. They brushed
their teeth and changed them finally they went to
bed huddling close to each other and giving each
other cuddles it's normal to do that with your
friends right? and with that They both fell asleep
in eachothers arms and hoping for a good nights
rests.

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