LeviHan OneShots

Bonfire *MANGA SPOILERS*

Bonfire:
A year after Hanji's death, Levi had started a small fire for warmth in the fireplace. Seeing the flames reminds him of an old conversation he had with her.

Levi's POV

"I learned something interesting about our bonfires, Levi..." Hanji said to me as we started a small bonfire for the two of us. There was no reason to start it. We weren't cold at all. Why did we start that bonfire? "Would you like to hear it?"

I rolled my eyes, knowing she would tell me her fun fact whether I would want to hear it or not. "What is it?"

"Bonfires were originally made to burn the bones. We know that. But I didn't know it's a great place to burn demons that haunt us. So should we share something?"

"I don't know what to say."

"I'll start." She takes a deep breath, sighing softly. "I feel like I led Moblit to his doom. After everything he did for me, I didn't do the same to him."

"Why are you talking like that? Moblit's not dead. He's just passed out in the hall-."

"Yeah, with 20 bottles of beer next to him. I should do something nice for him. Maybe I'll pay for his drinks-."

"To start with, how about not fueling him with more alcohol. Give him a break. Terrorize some other cadet. I know a few that you should take in under your wing. A week break from your crazy experiments, drawing sessions, and ploys to capture a titan. I think he'll be better off with that instead of another night drowning in that disgusting river of alcohol."

Hanji chuckles to herself. "Maybe you should do the same for your squad and their strict cleaning schedules."

"They're fine."

"Are they?" Hanji raised an eyebrow before turning back to the fire. "Alright, I'll give Moblit a break. Levi, do you have something to say?"

There were a lot of things I wanted to say. But I couldn't find a way to say it. I spent minutes trying to say what went on in my mind, but for the first time, I couldn't say it.

Hanji nudges me softly before sighing. "It's alright, if you don't want to share, we can do it next time. Besides, we should be sleeping. Tomorrow's the expedition." I watched her get up from the ground, dusting the dirt off of her pants. She smiles softly before waving to me. "I'll see you tomorrow, Levi."

"Goodnight," I whisper to her before kicking dirt into the fire. She could've helped put the bonfire out before leaving. But none of us are in the right mind... after all... we're stressed for the expedition tomorrow. 

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I opened my eyes, finding myself in the present. Onyankonpon held the handles of my wheelchair tightly, pushing me away from the bonfire. The fire was already dying. How long have I been in the past?

"Wait," I raised my wounded hand, "Let me stay here a few more minutes."

"It's already late-."

"Wait." Onyankonpon walked away from the wheelchair. "Just let me be for a few minutes. I'm not going to toss myself into the fire. I would never go out like that way."

Onyankonpon nodded. "Alright. Gabi, Falco, help me bring these into the tent."

Everyone left me alone, and I was happy. I pushed myself to the fire, feeling the warmth licking my cheeks. I remember that night clearly... and I should've said something back then. Hanji and I never had another bonfire like that. I... I wanted to tell her...

"I regret not telling you..." I say, losing control of my body as my mind began to speak freely. "I regret not telling you about my demons. We all have our demons... that night, you were scared of sending Moblit to his doom. When he died, when Erwin died... when I let them die, you didn't come out of your room. You decorated the room with a heavy cloud of depression. I should've broken down your door and held you tightly."

I felt a tear slipping down my face as I spoke.

"I should've told you that it was never your fault... just like how it was never my fault I let everyone die. I should've saved Erwin, but saved Armin instead. I regret not telling you how I felt. We lost everyone we ever loved in one day. You stood strong despite your body being covered in burns. You smiled to ensure no one was concerned with your wounds. How many cracks did you have within your fragile heart? Hanji... I love you..."

The tears continued to slip down my face as my lips quivered. I should've told her that. We might've died that day if it wasn't for her sacrifice... but she wasn't the only thing that died... I felt a part of myself die when she did. I should've stopped her... I wanted to... but I knew Hanji would beg me to let her go.

"Hanji... I love you... and I regret not kissing you before you died. I want to hold you in my arms again. Hanji... if you are in Heaven... wait for me. That way... when I join you, we can be reborn. And this time... when we are reborn... I will love you. I will always find you... and I will never love anyone else but you. Please... wait for me..."

Behind me, I felt someone was there... but I didn't hear anyone. I felt someone collapsing on my back, despite me sitting in my wheelchair. When she showered, she would always smell like roses. She told me that she hated those girly things, but I know she had a secret by always smelling like a rose. I hear her voice, though it only sounded like it was in my head.

"I'll be waiting for you..."