The Ap Calculus teacher

Yoga Room

I jerk awake to my phone ringing, I pick it up not looking at who it is. "You coming?" The voice is deep and I look up to my sky light. "It's pouring Colly." "We do have a gym darling." "Do you really want me to pull up to the school fresh off a nap to stretch?" "Well Sam is a no, so yes." "How long we gonna be?" "Hour max, most likely forty-five minutes." "Be there shortly."

I get up slipping a sweatshirt on and running downstairs. "Hey I've got training, want me to pick sushi up on my way home. I'll be like an hour plus getting the food." "Yeah that sounds perfect." I nod and grab my shoes and keys heading out to the car.

I walk into the field house and Colly is talking to Axel. His eyes catch mine and I smile softly. Colly turns around and sees me. "We're gonna be upstairs." I nod and head for the stairs.

I walk into the yoga room and begin cleaning a mat off. Colly walks in and looks at me, "How are you?" "Pissed." He nods and sits down in a chair. "I'm not fixing my attitude for some average team." "So why are you here?"

I look at him and start for the door. "You can admit it you know." I look at him, "I won't tell anyone, our secret." "And what secret is that?" I ask my heart beat increasing rapidly.

"That soccer is the only thing that makes sense in your life." The nervousness quickly turns to anger. "Why do you care so much?" "Because I was you when I was in high school. I understand. You're lost that's okay, but do not give up on the one thing that gives you a path."

"The more you talk like this the more I wanna leave. Just tell me what I need to do." "Start with normal before practice stretches and then we'll roll out." I nod and begin.

I'm laying on the PT's table with a bag of ice on my knee when a timer goes off. "All right you're good." He takes the ice off and helps me up. "You good?" Colly ask and I nod. "I'll see you tomorrow." He nods and I walk outside into the cold bitter air pushing my key into my hands.

"Bronx!" I turn around dropping my keys from my hand and Colly rushes to me. "What happened?" I look down at the blood dripping from my hand. "It's nothing, what'd you need?" He hands me my phone and I nod bending down to get my keys. "I-" "It's okay, we both did it."

I walk quickly to my car and pick up the sushi for my mom and I. As I get inside I call out for her, there's no answer and I walk into the kitchen seeing a note on the counter.

needed me for a consul I'll be back as soon as I can
5:15
mom <3

I check the time and it's 5:20 meaning she won't be home for quiet awhile. I toss her sushi into the fridge and bring mine up to my room getting comfortable in bed. I turn my tv on scrolling through my playlist and turn on my favorites.

I start eating my sushi while scrolling through instagram when my hand starts hurting, like excruciatingly. I look at it and remember the intense feeling. I set my sushi on my side table and head to the bathroom cleaning my hand off and bandaging it.

The mirror shames me harshly as I try to bandage my hand up; telling me how wrong our actions were, and even worse how much I liked it. The thrill, what he did, how he did it, every aspect made it the best I could ever receive.

Returning to bed I check my phone and see messages from Cam and Chanel.

Cam- bitch can u can hang?

Chanel- u still offering me a place to live?

I ignore Cam and text Chanel

Me- ofc what happened
Chanel- mom is a fucking bitch
took my pen
Me- why?
Chanel- not good for me
Me- ahhh
think she'll keep it for awhile or
Chanel- i already have it back
i'm just tired of the same fucking fight
Me- understandably so
i got sent to the office today and when i got home my mom said she loved me
Chanel- wtf she really trying a new tactic huh
wait why'd u get sent to the office?
Me- cause a bitch wanted to talk fucking shit
Chanel- and you got sent why?
Me- bc i want my athletes to be respectful and role models
Chanel- the soccer coach sent you!!!!
Me- after threatening to not put me on the team and i wasn't phased
Chanel- wtf what's he trying to do?
Me- apparently get in my pants bc at training today he pinned me to my yoga mat and went down on me

my phone starts ringing and I put it on speaker

Chanel- he ate you out at school?
Me- in the yoga room
Chanel- wtf!
Me- yea do i drop his class or
Chanel- was it bad?
Me- i came twice
Chanel- fuck no keep the class having a dirty secret isn't bad
Me- except for the fact he's 28 and I'm 17
Chanel- only eleven year difference who cares
Me- the law
Chanel- no body has to know
Me- i don't want a you situation
Chanel- just don't be stupid, we were stupid
Me- i don't know we'll see
Chanel- please keep me updated bc Tish has me on fucking no fun lock down so
Me- oh i will
Chanel- wait why were you in the yoga room and the only one there
Me- pouring rain and Sam canceled
Chanel- ahh, so you skipping tmrw or just going in full confident?
Me- skipping 100%
Chanel- yea i get that

We talk for a little bit longer and then she had to go. I unpause my music and chew on my chopstick anxiously.

I wake up to my moms voice and slowly walk down stairs. "Hey, I'm really sorry darling." "All good, you still up to watch?" "Of course." "Your sushi is in the fridge." She smiles and I head to the living room to start the show.

She plops down next to me and I lay in her lap. "You ever regret actions that were so good in the moment?" I ask and she starts playing with my hair. "All the fucking time."