—"it's me." jisung spoke as he put his cup of coffee away, looking at his band mates one by one until he got to mark. "i forced him."
jaemin and donghyuck opened their eyes even wider after hearing the last part. they suddenly felt so mad and wanted to punch the younger in the face but before anyone could throw hand, mark shouted.
"shut the fuck up. no, you didn't."
the other two looked at mark for saying that then turned back to jisung, waiting for a response.
"i did. i was drunk. you don't have to protect me."
"no! YOU don't have to protect me. i was the one who asked you to do it."
"well, i still shouldn't have."
"but i wanted you to!" mark shouted and stood up.
jaemin and donghyuck looked at each other, blinking in confusion. "uhh i think renjun's class is over now. imma go wait for him then." jaemin spoke and slowly gathered his things.
"don't leave me." donghyuck whispered as he grabbed onto jaemin's leg.
"then get your ass up and go with me." jaemin whispered back and they both made excuses to get out of the practice room, leaving the other two staring at each other without saying anything.
"mark..."
"jisung, i don't know what you're thinking and i don't care if you like me back or not, i just want you to like yourself more. stop putting yourself down. i hate seeing you like this."
"sorry."
"and stop saying sorry. you've done nothing wrong, at least not to me. i don't want you to think that you don't deserve anything in this world because that is bullshit. you deserve every good thing. i know stuffs that happened between you and chenle was bad, but it shouldn't make you feel any worthle—"
"i don't deserve you." he mumbled.
mark sat back down and grabbed the younger's hand. "why do you always say that?"
"mark, you deserve someone better. i'm just a nobody right now. i left my house and live a life with no directions. i promise you don't wanna be with me."
the older paused. "you left... your house?"
"yes, you should hate me now."
mark stayed in silence for a few minutes and jisung also did not bother to speak anything more as well. the older stood back up and sighed. "get up."
jisung turned his head up to look at mark, realizing the older had tears in his eyes that was just waiting for the moment to fall down. he quickly stood up and held mark's hands, squishing them softly. "hey, don't cry."
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• not so perfect | renmin
Romancein which, a very outstanding medical student, renjun, sees a dating club news on his school's announcement board and decides to join, shocking everyone who knows him there. talking about dating... he has zero experience about it. but what was the r...