All of You (Sebastian Vettel)

48. On the Horizon

Twelve days later Alyssa tried to hold back her tears as she watched Seb packing his suitcase, getting ready to head to Barcelona for preseason testing.  He was booked onto an evening flight as they'd had a hospital appointment with the consultant that afternoon.  Alyssa had had what felt like her hundredth ultrasound, and she'd still probably have a few more before the Beans were born.  To their relief everything was still looking good.  Both babies were still head down, and Twin One's head hadn't descended any further. Another seventeen days and she would be induced.   The end was in sight.

"I could have skipped testing you know," Seb said, noticing the tears pooling in Alyssa's eyes. 

"No, I told you, I'll be ok. I have Sisi. You'll be back Saturday afternoon anyway.  It's only four nights," she replied, faking a bravado she didn't feel.

"So why are you nearly crying?" he asked, brushing her cheek tenderly with his finger. 

"I'm not," she said, before bursting into tears.  "I'm just going to miss you so much!"  He wrapped his arms around her, whispering reassuring words in her ear.

"Oh baby. I don't want to go. I have to now. It's too late to rearrange things. I promise you I will FaceTime you every night. And Britta or Antti will have my phone on them when I'm in the car. You will be able to get hold of one of them or me at any time my darling."

"I know. Don't listen to me. I'm just hormonal and emotional. I'll be fine. Sienna's coming over with the girls tonight as it's half term. They're going to stay over and we're ordering a Chinese."

"I'm jealous now. I want a Chinese. Enjoy it baby."

"You know I won't eat much. There just doesn't feel like there's much room left inside me for food."  She couldn't remember the last time she'd actually finished a meal. 

"Just try your best. Enjoy your time with Sienna and the girls. You can practice changing Amelia's nappy." Alyssa sighed. She'd already changed so many of Amelia's nappies.  She didn't need any more practice.   She just wanted their babies there so she could change their nappies. 

Seb pulled back and he wiped her tears on the cuff of his hoodie.

"Remember, call me any time. If I'm not available I'll get back to you as soon as I can." She nodded, then stood up.

"Did you want a cup of hot chocolate before you leave?" She needed to be alone for a moment. She needed to get herself together. If she was a mess when Seb left he'd only worry more, and she didn't want him worrying when he had a car to drive.  He needed to keep his mind on the job he was there to do. 

"I'd love one baby. Antti will be watching me like a hawk in Spain so I might not get the chance there."

"I'll go and put the kettle on. You finish packing."

"I haven't got much else to pack. I'll be down in a few minutes," he told her.

Alyssa headed downstairs not knowing what to feel. She had mixed emotions. She was really looking forward to spending time with Sienna and the girls but she was sad because she was going to miss Seb so much, and also because she was just getting fed up of being pregnant now.

She and Seb hadn't made love for nearly a month as she just found it too uncomfortable. She knew there was more to their relationship than sex but she missed it. They'd had fun with oral sex and masturbation, but it wasn't the same.

Minutes later she heard Seb walk into the kitchen behind her.

"Right, that's me all packed."

"What time are you picking Antti up?" she asked.