All of You (Sebastian Vettel)

52. Struggles

Sixteen days later came the day both Alyssa and Seb had been dreading.  It was the day that Seb had to leave for testing. 

As testing would be immediately followed by a double header in Bahrain and in Saudi Arabia he would be away for a day short of three weeks. 

Alyssa was coping relatively well with the twins with Seb's support, but she was still worried about how she would be able to cope without him.   The twins were still wanting feeding at least twice each throughout the night. 

Seb slowly packed his case ready to set off.  He didn't want to go.  He didn't want to miss out on these first precious weeks of the Beans' lives.  They would change so much in that three weeks. 

He also didn't want to leave Alyssa for that long.  He hadn't been away from her for that long since their brief split.  She was his strength, and he didn't know how he would cope without her loving support.

He could feel Alyssa watching him from where she was sat on their bed. The twins were laid in their baskets, both fast asleep.

He put his final item into his case and zipped it up. He then turned around and looked at his wife. She had silent tears streaming down her face.

He wanted to cry with her but he knew he had to be strong. If he started crying now he wouldn't stop. He sat down on the bed next to her and wrapped his arm around her.

"I will FaceTime you every day. At least once, probably more! I promise you that baby. And remember, Sienna said you only have to call her if you need anything. She said she and the girls can come and stay whenever you need a bit of help, or just so you can rest."

"I don't want you to go. I know you have to, but I don't want you to. I'm going to miss you so much."

"Believe me, I'm going to miss you just as much. At least you only have me to miss. I have to miss you and the Beans."

"I guess." Alyssa turned her head and pressed her lips to the short stubble that covered his face. He'd had a shave a few days previously, ready for his three weeks away. He'd also had a haircut, returning to his previous short hair style of his Ferrari days. 

He turned his head and captured her lips with his.   What started off as a tender, loving kiss soon escalated into something more.  Seb slid his tongue between Alyssa's lips, seeking hers.  

She moaned as she felt a sudden spark of desire ignited inside her.   The next thing she knew she was laid on her back with Seb half on top of her, his knee nudging her legs apart, his hand on her breast.  He kissed her frantically as if he was trying to devour her. 

Finally he wrenched his lips away from hers and looked down at her.   She could see the desire in his eyes.  She reached a hand up and stroked his cheek. 

"I want you so fucking much.  It's killing me not being able to make love to you." Alyssa felt the same. She was absolutely exhausted but she was dying to feel Seb inside her again. It had been weeks since they had made love.

"Soon my darling," she told him.

"It can't come quick enough," he murmured, before climbing off of her.

He looked down into Nico's Moses basket and gently reached out a finger. He gently stroked his son's soft cheek. Nico stirred and opened his eyes. Seb smiled lovingly.

"Now Nico, you and I need to have a word. While I'm away you will be the man of the house. I need you to be a good boy and keep an eye on Mummy and Ava for me. I'm counting on you kid. I love you." He bent down and gently kissed Nico's blonde head.