It was the night before my birthday, in the morning I'd be 18, I'll stop aging. I should be happy, but I wasn't. Mostly because I was having such a horrible nightmare, a nightmare that at the time seemed so real, and I hoped it wouldn't ever come true. Although with my future seeing powers, I don't think I was gonna be happy with my results.
You all know Bella's nightmare about her growing older, mine was nothing like that. It worse so much worse. It started later that night when Jasper tried to attack myself and my sister. It was an accident, Bella got hurt, we got hurt. My father had to fix us up. Later Edward delivered us bad news. We were gonna have to leave Forks, but he didn't mean all of us, just them, not even including me.
I saw my father talking with my brother about me not coming. How he would in order to convince me to stay here for my own good, he'd have to say things that he didn't mean, he'd have to hurt me to insure I'd stay safe. That if I really had to come that I had a good reason, for Bella's sake. That if I would need to go with someone that it wouldn't be him, that Alice and Jasper would end up taking me.
Then I come back feeling all the hurt that I have the last few months somehow hiding my scars from my full vampire siblings. I had started to cut, to self harm, it was painful, but not nearly as much as it was hearing that Edward would ever say the things he'd have to say to keep me safe, for my own good. When I went back to Forks, Jacob was the first person to realize the scars and the cutting, I could never hide anything from Jake. He didn't yell at me, he was just upset. He was so worried about me. I told him what happened, he hugged me and never let me go.
Yet somehow during all that, his powers were coming this was why I was here, he was starting to transform again without warning, I jumped back, but I was too late, his claws scratched me. I tried to heal it, but I couldn't and I didn't know why. I was hurting because of my first brother and and now I was afraid of the second. I was warned this would happen I don't blame anyone but myself for not listening.
Later after Bella and I cliff jump to make sure we can still see Edward's ghost like she had been, everyone starts to think we're dead. Alice comes back and she's upset with me cutting too. She yells at me worried, asking what would happen if Edward knew. I screamed and cried and told her that this WAS because of Edward. She calmed down after that, hugging me trying to reassure me that he didn't mean that. I shook my head and told her that he must've meant it because when you're angry the truth comes out.
Alice grabbed me at arms length, telling me that I was wrong, that he had to say those things to protect me, I shook my head again. I knew how this worked. People only say the truth when they get angry, that even if he had to lie that there must be some truth in his words. She asked me who had been keeping me safe, who had been taking care of me. She hopped it was Bella, but she said she ha no idea that this happened. Then she asked us what the wet dog smell was. Alice I started telling her, but my thoughts were stopped when Bella reminded her that Jake was werewolf. She was shocked because the morphine wore off, then looked at my mark on my other arm and asked me what happened. I told her that while he had hugged me protecting me his suddenly changed formed and I was too late to back away as it lightly scratched my arm. She wasn't angry with Jake just annoyed, and worried.
Later when Edward calls the house and Jacob answers he doesn't tell us Edward called and tells him our dad was setting up a funeral. Edward thought we died, just like everyone else. We three decided that it was best if we flew to Italy. When we got there, Alice and I didn't get out of the car. When he only saw Bella, he was happy a little bit, but not convinced when I wasn't there. When we got kidnapped by Jane and the others once we got to Aro's main room, they tried to kill Edward, Bella tried to sacrifice herself, I then did too when she did because now everything was coming down around me.
My cousins never come to visit, Jacob's powers have come in and I was afraid a little bit, my siblings were full vampires and never loved or understood me like Edward did, but now Edward hated me, he didn't need me, all he would need now was Bella, my parents didn't know me much anymore ever since I've come to stay with the Cullen's and Jack was evil now, I had no one that truly loved me, so I was willing to die to protect everyone else.
Then later, we're all at the Coffee shop and it got set on fire. Everyone except me got out in time, I got trapped, father away my "family" the immortal ones and Jacob were all searching for me ultimately Jacob in his wolf form finding my screams and cries and coming to save me, just like a real dog or a real wolf, he barked and howled and the firemen came and got us out. They had me on a stretcher bed to take care of me to take me to the hospital giving me more oxygen. Sam had Jake, as I reached out for him and he put him on my lap, in his wolf form, we were lucky he wasn't in his human form. I was more worried about him then myself.
On the outside of my dream, I kept screaming when I got hurt. Magic made my cuts appear and the scratch appear, like my nightmare was so real. When I screamed out Edward tried to wake me up he was so worried about me, he was more worried when saw the marks mysteriously appear. Oh no he cried out. The window was open, so it was at least blowing nice cold air into the room. Jacob came up jumping from the tree branch closeted to my room, and coming in. What are you doing here? He aske him.
He wasn't angry with Jake, he didn't even look at him, he just stroked my hair and uncovered my body from the bed within the sheets. I heard her screams from across the forest I'm sure everyone in Forks heard her blood curdling screams. What happened?! He showed him my marks. These randomly appeared. Then when the scratch appeared that's when Jacob was really worried. That's one of my claw marks. How did it get their I'd never hurt her. I know you wouldn't, she knows you wouldn't. Jacob reached out his hand to touch and my body violently shook. Stop, Edward said placing his hand on Jake's arm worriedly. Something's wrong. No kidding.
Is it just me or is it getting ridiculously hot in here? No it's not just you, Farrah's starting to burn up too, and I'm starting to really feel it. The window's open though we should all feel the cold. I'm warmer than usual. Edward behind you! Jacob suddenly yells out. Both yell out when they see the fire crawling up the walls. We need to get her out of here! Yeah at least that's another thing we can agree on. Take her home with you I'll figure this out. Jacob nods picking me up from the bed, and jumping out my window. Edward came down after us.
Tell me what I need to do with her. Take her home set her in a bed, sing to her and as you sing stroke her hair, to calm her down, we'll hope that everything will be ok again in the morning. I'll aware of everyone what happened. Jut make sure she's safe. I'll come get her in the morning. It's fine I'll take her to school in the morning. That's not it.... He nodded and ran me to other side of the forest and brought me into his room. You're gonna be ok Snow, sh, sh everything's ok. My body went back to my normal temp. My scars started to fade the scratch mark went away. Ok this is just bizarre.
At home. Edward what happened where's Farrah? The others all came in asking. Where were you all a while ago? Hunting. We heard her screams and came back what happened?! So he told them, they were worried from what happened, but as much as they hate to admit it, we're lucky that Jacob showed up to protect me when he did, and that I was safe with him for the night. There was no more fire either my room went back to its normal coldness, with no signs of fire ever being there to begin with.
I'll have to look into this, but for now let's all get some sleep. And yes Edward before you say anything, go to sleep, for Farrah's sake, he turned to the others nodding as they all parted for the night to their rooms. Edward continued to sleep in my room like usual praying that I was ok. Back at Jake's the guys all wondered why I was there. He told them what happened, wondering the same thing when he left. They gave the same answer, why was everyone hunting so late at this hr?! He closed the door to his room as everyone went back to their rooms to go to sleep.
He stroked my hair starting a song.
he pulled up a chair placing it on the other side of the bed so that he was close enough still to pet my hair. However on the other side his dad and Sam were on the other side peeking through, he probably knew that they were there, but he may have not just cared. You can come in. He said letting out a light chuckle. Mostly for my own sake even if I couldn't hear him. You did good Jacob. His father told him. He nodded at him. He looked at Sam as if he was gonna say something. Then when he did Jake was surprised by what he had to say.
You say you wanted to give up being Alpha to have less responsibility, and to be free, but this girl our honorary wolf, you take full responsibility for her, and take care of her as if she were really your blood sister, you're a great older brother to her, and being free, well she get's you grounded and with a clear head. Sam says putting him in a head lock messing up his hair, ruffling him up a little. How does she do that, she's not even awake? Jacob asked laughing. Quite both of you, let her sleep Billy said to the boys. Goodnight Jacob. Come Sam let's retire for the night. Yes Sir. Goodnight bro. Goodnight Sam. Good night kiddo. I would've said goodnight too if I were awake, but I was finally sleeping peacefully. Happy birthday little wolf pup.
