Remember a few chapters back, at the beginning of this sequel, when after the entire day of saying that Bella and I wanted no presents, but people kept wanting to celebrate us? How Jasper gave me a skull version of himself? That if I wanted him to come for me, that if I was in trouble or that if I screamed he'd come for me? Well, maybe I'd get the chance to use it, and use it without him in the next room.
Because all that went through my mind the last few nights, just like usual there of course some kind of songs about everything that happened or has been happening going through my mind, because of course just like all those sayings "My mind is 80% song lyrics," and the part I would add is and 20% movie quotes. Which it is.
Everything is solved with music, or at least males everything seem not as bad when music is involved. So tonight's songs were
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when that next day had came it was that same day that Bella had found out the truth and that Jacob learned that Victoria was after us. Now we sent him away, Jacob was hunting Victoria and almost got shot at by Jack, and Charlie and Harry Clearwater were hunting down Jacob and the rest of the pack. Harry got killed by Victoria, meanwhile Bella and I were by the cliff, every time she did something dangerous Edward's ghost came.
So now he came when we were about to cliff jump, she was cliff jumping, but maybe I had other plans, no one needed me around, the two I loved like family only wanted Bella, the other one hated me, and had turned Bella a way, the other would fight for her love, my cousins haven't contacted me since they came and left, Jack is evil and doesn't remember me, my birth parents can't have me back, the rest of my family is gone far, far away and isn't coming back any time soon, the only people that want me want to use me and my powers for evil, and maybe what Edward said was true, otherwise Alice and Jasper would've tried to stop me from cutting, I was nothing, I was a nobody, and Victoria was right, James was right, Jack was right, Edward was right.
But if I told Bella that, she would've stopped me. Bella took off her jacket, standing on the edge. I stood by her side. Bella please stop, don't do this?! Edward's ghost warned. You wanted me to be human so watch me, besides you won't talk to your sister, she's hurting because of you. Yeah, and you don't even care, you made that clear, and everyone was right, it just took you to say it to make it true, once you said it nothing else mattered and that Victoria and James and Jack are all right. Edward you want nothing to do with me, so I'll make it easy on you.
I kicked off my shoes, ripped off my jacket, took my sister's hand and the background like movie background music that no one else except the audience can here that kind of music this song was playing in the back
and then we jumped. I knew I couldn't swim, no matter how much I surfed I knew how deep these waters were. And how slick the rocks were. My skull in my bag sensed me in trouble and back where Alice and Jasper were he heard me and panicked. Lay back down, Alice told him, you dealt with her last time, I'll go, but why on Earth the girls would try to kill themselves is beyond my knowledge. Alice flew back home, and got a taxi or something back to the house, and got in the car and drove to our house. Charlie was a way.
Jacob had also sensed something was wrong and drove up to get us. He was so worried about us both, but if you were to ask me more so Bella then me. Bella emerged. I was coughing up water, Victoria and Jack were in the water too, well now Victoria since Jack hated the water, but he was forced in for at least a sec, I could feel the water get colder then it already was. Bella saw Victoria swim toward us and she had my hand from dragging me along since she knew I was having a hard time swimming.
She banged her head on the rock, and started drowning, she still had my hand because I clung on tight, and started pushing her up, and Edward's ghost appeared again, then it was waved away, when I sensed someone grab her I let go, but I was also being brought down further I was losing consciousness Victoria had me in her grasp, I lost the ability to breathe for a few mins, falling unconscious. Jacob got Bella out, and kicked at Victoria dragging me out the more I started to sink, he had to really jump in and rescue me.
He already had our stuff. He woke Bella up first, since she was full human and he didn't understand how this kind of thing happens to me. She started coughing up water. What the hell were the two of you think loca?! I just had to see something. Hey Sam yelled take her back home I'm gonna go help out at the Clearwater place. Harry Clearwater? What happened over there. Harry Clearwater got a heart attack. OMG is he going to be ok? No Bella he's gone.
Come on go get in the car. W-wait. Wh- where's my sister, where's Farrah? She's lying here, I'm gonna wake her up. Once I make sure she has all the water out. Bella please you're freezing go get in the car, there's a blanket in the backseat. She walked away. Farrah, please wake up. Sis, sis please, Farrah please wake up I - I can't lose you, I can't! I started coughing up water. Oh good lord you're ok.
What the hell?! I know you didn't just want to see something, you just wanted to jump with her, maybe get all the bad memories out, clear your head, but you know you can't swim, you could've drowned, then what would've happened?! I w-would've died. Yeah I know, and is that what you want was that your plan? I didn't answer I just changed the subject. Jack and Victoria were in the water. I know Jack was there because the water started getting colder than usual.
And Victoria made Bella hit her head, I pushed her up, I didn't care what happened to me, or if I drowned, I wanted to save her, when I knew she got pulled out, I knew she was ok and let go, but Victoria also had a hold on me I was having trouble breathing, but I figured she'd just do what she wanted and get it over with, it would've been her pleasure, Jack wouldn't had cared he's evil, he doesn't love me anymore. She was making me drown even more then I had been.
You changed the subject. Were you trying to kill yourself? It wasn't my intention, but I knew I couldn't swim and if I died I died, and it wouldn't matter, my BF doesn't love me, my cousins don't contact me, my family won't be coming back, my birth parents can never have me, Aro wants me and my powers for evil, Edward hates me, and he turned Bella away, but even if everything was going perfectly fine, you both would still be fighting over Bella, there is no one for me.
You're wrong, Jacob cried pulling me close. Farrah, you're my little sister, and I will always love you. I will always love Bella, but family comes first, and I love you more than anything, including Bella, and I love her a lot. Don't say things you don't mean Jacob, I've heard enough lies to last me a life time. It's not a lie little sister, whatever he said to you, you know he had a reason, maybe not a good reason, but a reason. Come 'ere he said pulling me on his lap.
I know you're part vampire, so you're already usually freezing, but even someone like you shouldn't be this cold. Zap into something clean and warm and meet me at the car. I can't. Why not? My fingers won't hold still enough for me to change outfits. Then come get to the car anyways. I can't. Why not? My legs are numb and feel like jelly. Would you prefer if I carried you? Yes please.
You're a little actress. If you wanted me to carry you, you could've just asked. He smirked carrying me back. Yeah, but what fun would that be? Same old Farrah. He sat me down in the seat behind him, tossing me a blanket and buckling me in. We drove off, Bella still shivering. Hey, 108* over here. G-D you're so warm, it must be nice never getting cold. I'd scoot up and wrap my arms around you, but that doesn't sound like a good idea.
Nothing distracts me from driving, and no that's not a challenge, but come on swing on over, let me warm you up some. Normally I don't ask for heat, or complain, but if I don't warm up I'll die of cold. Now you're over reacting, just wrap your arms around me. Bella reached up to grab my hand. Wow, you're colder then I am. You're so warm. You said that already. Sorry.
It's a wolf thing. Both: It's not, it's a Jacob thing. We laughed when we jinxed ourselves. Then Jacob *sighed* what if I ever got mad at either of you? You could never. You saw Emily, what if that happened to either of you, because of me?! Farrah, I already hurt you! It was an accident. Let me see your arm, G-D Farrah it hasn't gone away yet. Your family is going to kill me. They won't know, they won't be back.
You know sometimes I feel like, that I'm just gonna disappear. Now you know how I feel. Like I'll never be enough. I know neither of you need me to tell you this, but I will. How? I'll remind you both over and over again, how special you both are to me. And there we go again, with the comparing. It's always me and someone else. Jacob, thank you for everything I think we're all warmed up now.
I removed the blanket and zapping on a new warmer clean outfit (outfit 10) ok girls this is where I let you off. Wait, he says closing the door again. There's a vampire here. Duh! Aside from you, you have a different scent, and after tonight I'm not taking any chances. I'm getting you both out of here, NOW! Wait, Farrah look it's you dad's car, they're back. No it's a trap! Bella, please. Jacob, Farrah is with me if they're back they won't hurt me.
Bella I can't protect you here! It's ok, we're fine it will be ok. Come on Farrah, she says dragging me with her. I would've objected, unsure of who we would see, but she was too fast and I was too weak. When we turned on the lights we saw Alice, we jumped but hugged her. Alice! Bella cried out. Alice looked shocked like she had just seen a ghost. Girls! She yelled in worry. We're sorry, we just.... Would either of you care to explain to me why you're both alive?
What are you talking about?! I saw a vision of you both jumping into the water, why on Earth would you want to kill yourself? She asked Bella first. What about your mom, and Charlie, or Edward?! I'm fine, we're fine, we didn't try to kill ourselves or at least I didn't IDK abut her, maybe she wanted to get rid of the bad memories or something, but we cliff jumped it was fun.
You girls, I've never met anyone more prone to life threatening idiocy. Alice said as we all sat on the couch, and we were drinking hot chocolate. I lifted my arm, when I picked up my glass and Alice freaked out. What happened there? When did that happen? While we were away and I can't believe my full vampire siblings didn't catch me, this went on for months. G-D Farrah, maybe you were trying to kill yourself, you know you can't swim, you could've drowned, why would you do that, what would Edward think?!
Don't you get it?! This is because of Edward! He told me nothing but lies, he never loved me, he hates me! I'd be doing everyone a favor if I had drowned and died! And what is that?! She continued. It's Jacob's scratch mark, it was an accident he was in mid transformation when he turned to warn me to get back, right when he did he scratched me, but that will heal. Farrah, whatever Edward said isn't true, and he didn't mean it, you know he loves you.
No, he wouldn't had said otherwise, when people are scared and angry, the truth comes out, and so Victoria, James and Jack were right, but it took Edward to see that, I already agreed, but hearing it come from the one person that has always loved me no matter what, I knew it had to be true, and that he wouldn't say otherwise.
Girls, what is that G-D awful wet dog smell. It's us, or it's Jacob. Jacob who? Alice, how many Jacob's do you think we know? Farrah you know werewolves aren't good pets to keep around, including yourself, and I mean that playfully. Speak for yourself. Jacob says coming in. I had to make sure you're ok. Well I'm not gonna hurt either of them.
No, because you're just a harmless Cullen, just like this one, no I'm talking about, the blood sucker that moved in when you all left, her and her older brother! Victoria, and Jack? Yeah, they've been around. I didn't see either of them, and by the looks of things, neither did Farrah, I also never saw either of you get pulled out of the water. She turned to Jacob. I can't past you and your pack of mutes. Hey don't get me angry! Yeah, besides that includes me too, because I'm one of those muts.
Farrah, please tell me someone has been taking care of you and keeping you from cutting! She turned to Bella, she was already like this when I came. I kept her alive, I kept them both alive, and I kept her from cutting. Well then thank you, now I'll give you both a min. Come on Farrah. Wait, Alice you guys aren't going anywhere, right, you're coming back right? As soon as you put the other dog out. Come on other, other dog.
Bark! We waited outside. Bella and Jacob were in the kitchen. I heard the phone ring. I knew it was Edward. Have you talked to him? Does he know your here? No, Farrah I'm sorry, he only called those couple of times every few months he said he needed to be alone, remember. When he hung up, we found out in a vision that Rosalie told Edward why we came, and we went in to tell Bella.
Why didn't you let me speak to him?! He didn't ask for you, for either of you. I don't care! Bella, Farrah, we need to hurry, he thinks you're both dead! Speaking of not caring, why should I he's nothing but a liar, he doesn't care about me so why should I care about him?! Because even you wouldn't wish death on someone else. So what?! So this should make you care! He wants to die too.
That got my attention, just because he hurt me didn't mean I shouldn't care if he got hurt or if he killed himself even if I already more or less even if it hadn't been my intent, but to try that anyways and I was stopped, besides before he could die, I wanted to give him one last piece of my mind, and then I could let go. He didn't want anything to do with me, so I would save him, but leave alone forever after that, since he didn't care about me anymore, but knowing he wasn't doing this for me, I had to go save him even if it were Bella's sake. I loved him, but he didn't love me, and he never did. I could give up now after this.
We could part ways once more forever after this, I would move on, but we had to make him see us one last time, then we would let him go if that's what he really wanted. But I couldn't let him kill himself with guilt, even if I should've, but no matter how he made me feel, two wrongs don't make a right, I had to be the bigger person.
