The day I met you. (Phan Smut)

Do you still love me?

WARNINGS, smut, boyxboy, low selfesteem, selfharm and idk there must be something else, that I don’t remember..

*Phil POV*

I walked into the livingroom of Dan’s dad’s house, I saw Dan sitting on the sofa, watching and playing with something on the table. It was the day of Simon’s funeral, tho it happened like two days ago, his mom just wanted to get it over with. I walked and sat next to Dan, ’’What are you doing?’’ I asked, I saw that he had some old family photos on his hands, I saw his shirt’s sleeve going up, I saw.. I saw scars on his skin. New scars. ’’Dan?’’ He turned around to face me, ’’Yeah?’’ He asked smiling, I knew it was fake. ’’Give me your hand.’’ I said, watching the fear filling his eyes. ’’Why?’’ He tried, ’’I think, you know why.’’ I said taking his arm on and lifting the sleeve. There were a lot of new red scars on his skin. I felt crushed, he hurt himself and I didn’t even know, I’m a terrible boyfriend. ’’I’m sorry, Phil.’’ He said sniffing. I hugged him, just to calm him, ’’It’s okay. It’s okay.’’ I said he sniffed into my shoulder. ’’We need to get going now,.’’ I broke the moment and we got up and walked to my car, he sat on the front seat and stared at me, ’’Thanks.’’ ’’Why?’’ I asked confused, ’’For being there for me.’’

We came to an old church, I knew Dan wasn’t religious or anything, neither were I, but this was a funeral and we just stayed quiet. We took seats at the front next to Simon’s mom and everyone else got in and sat behind us, the priest started talking. Dan suddenly took my hand, I turned to him, he had tears in his eyes and he whispered me, ’’Do you still love me?’’ What? Of couse I did, why would he think I wouldn’t love him. I stood up and pulled him with me, I knew it was rude way to leave, but at the moment, I did not care. As we got out of the church, I turned to face Dan, ’’What do you mean by, do I still love you?’’ I nearly shouted, ’’Of course I love you Dan. I will always loive you. Why wouldn’t I love you?’’ I started feeling desperate, like he wouldn’t believe me. I squeezed my hands on to his shoulders and attached our lips. I le all my anger, depress, need and lust in that kiss and Dan must have done the same, it was amazing. His lips worked against mine, as his hands trailed on my back and ass. I started pushing him, till his back hitted the outside wall of the church. I let the kiss continue for a while more, before I broke it and stared at Dan’s brown eyes, full of lust. ’’I fucking love you, Dan Howell.’’ I said and he answered, ’’I fucking love yout, too, Phil Lester.’’ He connected our lips again and I pushed him on the wall and moved against him. I broke our kiss, but kept staying as close as I could to him, ’’Wanna continue this at home and skip the funeral?’’ I asked, ’’Yeah’’

*Dan POV*

I opened the front door of my house and Phil pushed me against the wall the second, it closed behind us. His tongue explored my mouth and his hands, his hands pushed my hands against the wall so I couldn’t move them. He suddenly moved on my neck and sucked a red mark on my skin, he pulled  my sweat shirt of and the I was back, against the wall. I felt my hard grow in my skinny jeans as Phil kept dominating me. He suddenly started pulling me with him, keeping our lips against each other, he pulled me up the stairs, like that, he pushed me on my back on the bed in my room. He pushed me down from my wrist and the pain from the scars filled my body, I didn’t care, this is what I want. I want Phil. I want him to use me. ’’Philllll..’’ I moaned when he sucked my neck, his arms trailed down the sides of my body, giving me shivers. His hands trailed over my member and he squizeed a bit trough the fabric. A loud moan left my mouth as he did so. He started undoing his belt and pulled his jeans down, taking his boxer with them. ’’Can I blow you?’’ I asked as I was thrilled by, how sexy he looked infront of me. ’’You will.’’ He said and pushed me on the floor, ’’Go on your knees.’’ He said with ahusky voice, I did how I was told. He walked infront of me and I opened mouth and wrapped my lips around his member. A slight moan left his mouth and I smiled a bit, as I popped my heads back and forward few time. Phil’s hands tangled my hair and he started moving faster and faster, his member pushing down my throat with every trush. I swallowed around him and thanked god, for not giving me a gag reflex. He brutally fucked in my mouth and quiet moans left his mout, with every thrust. ’’Dannn... I..’’ He pulled out of my mouth and I immediately wanted his member back in my mouth. I pouted at him, but he just came on my level and kissed me. ’’I love you Dan.’’ He said, I nodded, ’’I love you too, but could you fuck me before I’m gonna explode in need?’’ I said sarcastically, ’’You asked for it.’’ Phil said, before I could react, he grapped me and threw me on the bed. He undid my belt and pulled my skinny jeans and boxers down with no trouble. He threw me over so my butt hang in the air, he opened the lube and flicked his fingers in it, before pushing two in me. I moaned out loud at the pleasure and the stretch, he wiggled his fingers in me and pulled the fingers fully out and hit them back in. ’’Phill!’’ I screamed my voice breaking, he just kept doing what he did and I couldn’t take it anymore, ’’Please plase please! I’m ready so ready. I’m ready for you Phil, please fuck me, please.’’ I screamed in need to feel Phil. He pulled his fingers away and I felt the emptyness hit me, I cried out loud for Phil to hurry. Out of nowhere he slammed into me, ’’Gosh YES. Right there.’’ He trushed into me and pulled back, again and again, faster and faster, with every thrust he hit my prostate and loud moans left my mouth in sync with the thrusts. ’’F-fuck, Phil, I-i’m gonna..’’ I studdered, Phil wrapped his hand around my member and I felt the warm feeling filling my body, as I hit my high. I came on the bed sheets, with a scream of Phil’s name. He kept fucking me trough it, but could keep it up only for few seconds, before he came in me with moans. He pulled out of me as he came down from his high and we both laid on the beth, ’’I love you.’’I said, still trying to even my breath, ’’I love you more.’’ Phil said turning to kiss me a quick peck, after that, I cuddled up to him and he opened his arms for  me.

I standed infront of mirror, I had my black skinny jeans on, but my hair was still messy and I had no shirt on yet. I stared at the red marks, starting from my neck and ending by my V-line. Phil stood behind me and stared at me, I think he mostly saw the same thing, but the scars on my arms too, ’’Wear this, it looks hot on you.’’ He said throwing me a dark blue, kind of see trough shirt, I putted it on, ’’Phil this shows my hick-..’’ ’’Good. Now get ready we need to be in class, in like 20 minutes.’’ Phil said turning around and walking away. I straightened my hair and brushed my teeth as fast as possible. Then I ran downstairs, where Phil waited, ready by the door, we got out and sat in the car. I pressed the radio on. It was playing, Take me to church, I choked a bit. This is like us. Phil smirked at me and winked, he knew, what I was thinking.

Phil, Carrie and I sat together at lunch, ’’Oh it’s nice to see yout two again!’’ Carry explained, Phil told me, that Carrie had agreed on not talking about Simon and what happened, thank god. ’’Wow. Dan.’’ What? I looked up at her with confused face, ’’What?’’ She winked, ’’Nice hickeys you got there..’’ She said trailing her fingers down my neck, I pushed her hand away, ’’Don’t touch my neck.’’ I said coldly, ’’I don’t like people touching my neck. If your name is not Phil, don’t touch my neck.’’ I said, Carrie nodde, embarressed and got an excuse to tak to teacher or something. She left me and Phil alone, Phil lowered his voice and whispered, ’’That was smokin’ hot.’’

Authors note, 465 reads?? OH MY GOD, I LOVE YOU GUYS <3<3<3

This chapter was kinda smut only, but who will complain, I won’t.  I hope youa ll have a nice friday evening and stuff! Byeeeee. xoxoxo