Love is blind (Mabel x Pacifica)

My mistake

Mabel POV

-contains themes of abuse, sexual assault, and rape so if your not comfortable with that you should skip this chapter you have been warned——

I couldn't sleep and even though I was tired like shit but I refused to close my eyes because every time I do I get flashed with memory's that I had with my ex I hated it

But somehow someway sleep was able to overcome me sending me into the hell hole that was my memory

And this wasn't my first time being here

For awhile after me and my ex broke up my mind would always bring me here and make me watch just how stupid and naïve I was for falling for the first girl to give me attention

And this dream was different then my other dreams instead of me interacting with it I would be put to watch it as if this was some sick trick my body wanted to play on me

"Hello miss Mabel" a voice spoke soft and loud yet was nowhere to be found "hello William" suddenly will triangle body phased into view

His hat was tipped over and his eyes were watery  "got the dreams again" I nodded my head my eyes becoming watery as I looked at the memory of my ex rapping me

"What went wrong William" I fell to me knees as I watched how she she tied to my wrist together and tired a cloth around my mouth she then whispered in my ear 'I'm only doing this because you refuse to give me what want. What I deserve'

Each word was like a knife in my chest but no matter how hard I tried to scream no sound would come out

And what made me so made about that was the fact that I had decided to stay with her and forgive her saying 'we all make mistake sometimes' but maybe if I had broken things off then maybe I wouldn't have had such a traumatic experience

"It's not your fault all of these things happened" William floated down next to me and made a blanket appear out of thin air and wrapped me in the warm cotton material

"I know... but it still hurts each time"  my voice was cracking and the words came out as mumbles

And if you thought the last memory was bad this one was worse

We were out getting dinner one night and the entire date she had her eyes on other girls the entire night and when I confronted her on it she called me a lying skank and even if she was doing it maybe it was because I dressed like a little girl and she wanted look at women

And in the end I apologized for not looking provocative so after that day I started to dress sexy which lead me to my fashion style but I think that just made the abuse worse

Another memory was her threatening to kill waddles if I didn't buy her something she wanted

Another was her beating me because I told her that I wouldn't drop candy and grenda despite her knowing that they were my best friends and the only people I felt actually liked me for me

Sadly I couldn't tell that my girlfriend was only dating me for what I could give her

I remember that it was so bad that if dipper didn't walk in on her hitting me I would have broken a bone but even after that I still forgave her and stayed with her telling everyone that she promised to be better and change sadly she didn't

And the worst one out of all was how I got my scar but I couldn't handle it any longer and I began to sob will wrapped his spaghetti arms around me "okay that's enough"

And in a few seconds I was in my room again but that didn't stop me from crying only stopping for a second when will handed me my phone

Open to see Pacifica contact on the screen "you want me to call Paz" will nodded his head which was really more like he was bending the tip of his triangle body

"I see the way Pacifica voice makes you feel. You practically light up.. and I hate seeing you cry" I took my phone and called Pacifica number I laid back onto my soft bed and pressed the phone to my ear

"Hey Mabel what's up" for some reason as Pacifica high pitched voice hit my ears I began to call down "nothing must just wanted to talk can't sleep"

"Wow me neither to be honest. I'm just so excited about going to my very first ball" I sighed

"I'm happy to here that. Cause if I'm being one of my goals in life is to make you experience and try new things and in the end make you happy" I could hear Pacifica soft giggles from the phone

"We'll I must say you are doing quite the good job"

"Really you think so" Pacifica hummed i moved the phone away from my mouth for a quick second and looked at will

"Your right... her voice does make me happy"