*1 year earlier *
Tamia ( Mia )
" and you know damn well i still love you so stop saying that bullshit if i didn't trust me you would know " she said
" that's just how i fucking feel , you can't be mad about something that i feel . your actions proves to me that so i'm going to say it . " i said getting irritated
" you promised me " i said softly
" promised you what ? " she said looking at me
" You promised me you would never leave me .that i'm always your forever girl " i said being serious
" and then you left me and i had to pretend i was okay with it , and you wonder why we don't fucking work out because it happens every single fucking time " i said feeling myself about to cry
" I hate when you break your promises .. '' i said feeling my heart being split into tiny pieces slowly
she just stayed silent .
" since you not fucking speaking i will . I felt so unloved by you and thought you didn't want me . I felt disconnected from you and it wasn't fair . "
" I try my best tamia.. " she said
" SO DID I . All I needed was you and you weren't there and that broke me . And you are wondering why I'm never home. I feel so disconnected and I checked out so long to the point where I give you so many hints and you still don't realize that I am not okay . shits i'm asking from you so easier than us fucking scissoring "
" i'm sorry "
" i could be in my room fucking crying in the bathroom and you wouldn't be there . How unfair is that ? and we live in the same house . we're so disconnected with each other you don't even care" i said feeling my body get hot
" I wouldn't be surprised if she doesn't want to be with you any more . Can I take over this conversation ? you're hurting me " renae said
She pushed me away and I felt so small . i knew already i would be walking out here and someone would be crying
( 10 minutes later )
I heard loud voices , it felt like I couldn't breathe for so long .
" I don't want to be with you . i'm done " she said looking at me
" why ..? " i said
"I just can't do it anymore , this conversation i over " she said picking up her phone and turning away
" If loving you is a syn , then let hell be my paradise "
( Present time )
*New Year *
I shot myself out of my sleep rubbing my head to the familiar dream.
That argument still gets to me .
I shook my head in frustration because I've had that dream for the past 2 days now .
I get chills thinking about her .
i wish i could forget how mentally bad we hurt each other
but I still longed for her.
Is that bad ?
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Loving You Is A SYN ||Sequel||
NonfiksiYOU MUST READ THE FIRST BOOK !! we know what Tamia and Tynise went through. some questions never got answered and something's just never gotten said . everything was left in the dark Are they officially over ? Dime and Kira ? What happened to Syn...
