Vee's POV
"It'll be okay love.." I hear Kat whisper as she strokes my hair. It's been a week since the news broke, and I've stayed with Kat. Without her I'm not sure I would've left my position. I don't really talk often and I don't even have the energy to move, I know Rue may feel like we aren't close and like I only care when it's convenient, but I care about her so much. I've watch her since her father passed and I could see how much it's effected her whole family, Gia and I are close and I would be close with Rue, but she won't let me. She's in the stage where she only wants what she wants, so I let the drugs slide, but now I can't help but feel it could've been prevented if I spoke up. Maybe that's why I haven't been able to move yet, I feel guilty as hell and I genuinely hope she recovers from this.. My dad was an addict... safe to say he didn't recover from his addiction.
"What are you thinking about?" Kat asks while still stroking my hair, "it's not important." I spoke quietly refusing to meet eye contact with her knowing I would start crying again. "Are you sure? Its important to me.. just like I'd assume my feelings are important to you.." I felt a few tears run down my face before I sat up looking at Kat "it's my fault" I finally admitted breaking down in her arms.
Kat's POV
I held the once vibrant bold girl in my arms wishing that I could do anything.. "it's okay babe.. you didn't do anything." I spoke softly while rubbing her back letting her cry in my chest. She makes me happier than I show, and it truly breaks me to see her like this.
Vee's POV
After putting clean warm clothes on, I felt ready to go home. I didn't want to leave Kat's, all I wanted to do was stay in her arms letting her comfort me, but I knew I had to go home. I would probably come back tonight knowing my mom, but I still try.. most people think my mom is this well put together woman, but she's a fucking mess. She cry's herself to sleep with a cup of wine by her side so warped up in her own grief that she stopped caring about me, when dad was alive we were a big happy family. I would be around more, and when I was around I'd actually feel the love. Now I feel like a burden... she's a lawyer, so she has to get ready and put on her poker face, but when she gets home it's not that pretty. I was so caught up in my thought that I didn't even realize I was approaching the blue door that I've dreaded seeing this whole drive. Once I got out the car with my bag, I locked my car and approached the door. I took a deep breath before unlocking the front door and stepping in, "where have you been!" I hear my drunk mother slur. "I was with Kat, per usual." I spoke letting out a sigh, I don't really want to argue today... I just want to go in the room and get my shit so I can go back to Kat's. "Why are you always around her? You like her or something?" She said with obvious sarcasm. I decided to ignore her gathering my clothes, my box (full of the illegal stuff), and some toiletries. She walked to my door leaning against it, "I know you heard me, and you're leaving already? Going back to your girlfriend I see." I turned to look at her with a glare "she is not my girlfriend." My mom laughed "oh so that got a reaction out of you huh? She's not your girlfriend, but you wish she was, is that what it is?" She asked stepping closer to me making my face get hot. I brushed past her with my packed bag trying to leave, but before I could go she grabs my arm and turns me to face her. " what mom! What do you want! Do you want me to say I'm in love with her? Do you want me to say that I'm going to stay with her because I can't bare to be with you?" I wanted to scream that at her, but when it came to mom I wasn't as bold as I was perceived. We just stared at each other before I moved out of her arms walking out to the car to sit in it, once I was sitting in the car I felt a burning sensation in my nose, and I knew that meant I was going to cry but I didn't want to. I didn't want to give her the satisfaction and I had to make it to Kat's in one peace...
So I took a deep breath and left.
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(A/N)
Cause imma update more. I genuinely enjoy writing the story, and I think I will be updating a lot more frequently.. I hope y'all enjoy! <3
