Vee's POV
I know I said I was going to Kat's... but I'm going to make a quick stop at Fez's Gas Station. I smoke, which is how Rue and I met, but I don't like to show it. I like to smoke by myself and I especially don't like when I'm smoking around Kat. I'll gladly be high around her, but I'm oddly nervous to smoke around her. I can also get Kat some snacks, so it's a win win.
I pulled the keys out of the ignition before I opened the door to get out, while stepping out I see a girl with blonde hair ride by on her bike. I wonder who she is... what do I care? I'm not here for her. I walked into the small gas station, I went to get Kat's food and drinks first then I went to the back of the freezer to meet ash. "Hey Ash! How are you doing these days?" I asked with a genuine smile, I really liked ash, I liked how he would ride for his family no matter what. "Same shit a different day, how's you and your girl?" He asked with a smirk, little shit may be young, but he sure as hell is smart when he wants to be. "She's good, but She's not my girl. Also can I get an ounce?" I asked feeling myself begin to blush. "Yea, you know how much I charge, oh I also got some Karts available if you want.." I thought about Kat when she gets stressed, so I decided to buy her a Kart and my ounce. Once I paid I walked out saying a quick bye to ask and Fez, since I wanted to hurry up and get to Kat's before it began to rain since the dark clouds were evident.
I ran into Kat's house with the bags, since I have a key. I walked into her room with semi wet hair and a smile, "heyyyy love, I got you some stuff." I say handing her the stuff, when our hands meet i feel a spark, but I stomach the feeling faster than I can comprehend it. I'm used to feeling like my body is on fire around her, so I subconsciously started to learn how to stomach it so I didn't have to deal with it. It works for the most part, but times like these when she looks especially gorgeous I find it hard to. I enjoy looking at Kat in her natural state; glasses on her face, baggy clothes that she's obviously comfortable in, and really just seeing her in her comfort zone. I'm glad that she feels she can be like that with me, and I think that it's a big part of why I'm so attracted to her as a person. I've always gravitated towards Kat, and our relationship has always been pure. "Earth to Venus." I suddenly hear Kat as she begins to wave her hand infront of my face. "Oh I'm sorry, what did you say?" I said looking down in embarrassment. "I was just saying thank you for everything, I just thought there was something on my face the way you kept staring at me." She spoke with a small chuckle, "No! There's nothing on your face, you look beautiful, sorry I was just thinking about the shit that's been happening." Speaking of, I definitely forgot to smoke, so now I really will be thinking the majority of the time I'm here. "Do you want to smoke? I know you do, and I can tell you get nervous around me, but you don't have to be.. i looked up at her with a small smile before pulling out my box that I keep locked, inside I had; Jars for my bud, my pipes and bowls, some wraps, my grinder, and of course my lighters. I pulled out the blunt I rolled the other day along with my lighter, "I'm going to smoke in my car, I don't want your mom to get upset at me or you because if smells like weed in here." I said with a small giggle as I began to get up, but before I could get up Kat grabs my wrist. I turn to look at her sitting on the bed getting ready to get up, "wait for me." She spoke with a smile, feeling bold, I can't fight the smile that comes to my face as I push up her glasses before we walk out to the car hand in hand.
Once we got in the car I looked at her to see she was nervous, "you don't have to do this love... I don't want you to feel pressured." She gave me a small smile before shaking her head no, "I want to do this, I just get a little nervous to smoke weed. It makes my emotions and feelings more intense sometimes, and I get nervous to do it..." she spoke quietly. I smiled rubbing her hand that ended up laced with mine again somehow before trying to reassure her, "I'm sure everything will be okay love, and again you don't have to do this. Take it slow and see how it goes." I spoke before unlacing our hands, my hand missed the warmth of hers, but someone had to light the blunt.
After passing the blunt a few times it was evident that we were both quite fucked, so we decided on going inside to lay down and watch a movie. I was getting dressed in a shirt with boxers when Kat came out the bathroom, I couldn't help but stare at her, I know it may be wrong, but I couldn't help it. I finally tore my gaze from her as I sat beside her to watch the movie she picked on her laptop she actually decided on watching a TV show today. I guess my Marvel addiction wore off on her, because I see her start Wandavision.
We were a few episodes in when I felt a warm hand lace with mine and give my hand a small squeeze, I smiled before squeezing her hand back. She slowly unlaced her hands and began to trail her fingers up my arm slowly causing my body to heat up once again. I looked over at her to see her eyes still glued to the laptop as she simply traces shapes into my arm, something about her doing this was so soothing that i don't even remember falling asleep..
All I remember was thinking about how much I love Kat and how much she will never love me...
(A/N)
As always I hope y'all enjoyed! Let me know how y'all feel about this book! I'm always open for feedback and constructive criticism, but i plan to keep updating. These chapters may feel under done and I may change it as I go, but at the moment I'm just writing to write, I just really wanted to share this with everyone! Much love!!
