Vee's POV
Nat and I already arrived at school. We've been better since the whole ambush thing, she explained that she didn't know why she did what she did, she said she was just tired of seeing me hurt. I love her for it, but I'm still hurt. Hurt at Kat for not even trying to talk to me after watching me leave her house, and I'm kinda hurt at Nat because she knew what Kat meant to me and she jeopardized that. Really I don't know what to think, but I have to head to history anyways.
Once I walked into the classroom I noticed Kat was speaking to this guy laughing and having a good time.. I sat in my seat toward the back and tried to ignore them, but I couldn't. I see how happy Kat looks, and I envy him.
Once class is over they walk out hand and hand, I take my time packing up my shit before leaving the class. I was going to head to my next class, but I just walked out. I don't have the energy to
be around Kat right now...
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Nat called and asked where I was, and honestly I didn't want to tell her.. I was in the car doing what I do best; fucking up. I had to go get my last stash of Molly and drove away. I ended up on this cliff overlooking the city, and to call it beautiful is an understatement. I've already taken the drugs, so there really is no going back, but I finally feel content. My mind isn't racing, I'm not worried about Kat, I'm not even worried about Nat, I'm just here. While I'm here I really don't ponder on the thought of Kat being with someone , I think of all the ways she could be happier. It's settled; she's free.
When I wake up in my car I feel like shit. I look at my phone to see a few missed calls and texts from Nat, ash, and fez. I just drive home not having any energy to respond, when I arrive I noticed Nat's bike was here. When I open the door I see the three of them just sitting there, I close the door and begin to walk to my room. "Vee? What the fuck man! You can't just not respond! We were fucking worried!" Nat screamed at me. I just shrugged and continued to walk back to my room, "Are you kidding me! You don't care!" I just laid in my bed face down unable to speak. "You know what? Fine Venus! Don't pick me up tomorrow!" She yelled before slamming my door.
The next morning I picked myself up out of bed, threw on some clothes, and walked out the house. I didn't feel the need to do anything today honestly, I still just feel here.
When I arrived to school I noticed Nat get out of Nate's truck. Her bright blue eyes met my dark brown eyes, I raised my eyebrow, but she just looked away. I just nodded my head and walked inside.
History came around and I noticed Kat looked happier than ever, I kept my head down and tried to stay positive, tell myself that she deserves better. What ever the fuck I needed to hear to keep going really.
I actually paid attention in class today, it helped keep my mind off of her.. but it's time for lunch, and I honestly don't know what imma do. I don't really feel welcomed anywhere, so I just walked into the lunch room and got my lunch, when I looked around to see if I could sit anywhere I noticed Natalie was sitting with Nate.. I'm worried for her, but if that's the way she wants to be, she'll learn. I also noticed Kat sitting with Ethan, I learned his name today. I just decided to throw away my food and walk out, I walked to the bathroom and sat on the toilet rubbing my hands together debating on if I wanted to stay here.. I didn't..
Once I was out of that hell hole I had one thing on my mind, drugs. Just had to figure out how I was going to get it, I know ash is still pissed at me, and I know Fez probably wouldn't let me take any. Actually I know just what to do..
I'll hit up Rue
(A/N)
I know y'all probably think this is a mess, but it's supposed to be. Vee is losing her shit now that she feels she has no one. These next few chapters going to be heavy, I'll be sure to include TW. (Should I do a TW for drug use?)
