In the front gate of the halls i told him,
How embarrassed I'm about saying it that i am in love.....Yes.........not for today but since years behind me, and he grinned in hesitation to avoid the conflict. To tell me he is not someone i need him to be.
To hold my hand, to be my man.
To with i walk down the hill with.
He told me he have someone else in his mind, intoxicating his nerves , but him in mine.
Look here i faked a million smile like it was not worth a thought just in a day, look i feel that pain by the ricocheting silence of every moment since my say.
Between attending guests and family,
i precisely chose to destroy my happiness blindly,
hurt myself through skin to bones and watch my eyes cry with bloody tears of despair alone.
For the thousandth time they asked me are you alright?
Like a liar i told them that "Yes indeed" i lied.
But Am i? Is the question arise.
But life is just a rolling dice.
At him i was smiling while shooting pictures of mine, but as he gazed at my shallow eyes my body felt chill, and i was shattered.
If i could i would just pretend like it never happened ever,
but i don't want to because these are my feelings, and i want to feel every single bit of it,
besides it wasn't meant to be,
it wasn't meant to be ,
it doesn't need to be.
