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"Oh hey Ni. Thanks for opening the door now" Carol said sarcastically. What is wrong with her?

"What do you mean?" I asked her confused, while Harry just giving me a smile. God damnit it's a freaking smirk

"I asked you to open the door like a half hour ago, geez. You see? Even Jaxon got tired" she said rolling her eyes. Wait Jaxon? I looked around and there is no him

"But it's okay. I talked to Harry ever since. He's so funny why you never told me about him? Anyway Jaxon is in your backyard. Harry told him to go to there because there is swimming pool yeah" she explained

"You talked to Harry?" I asked. That shït

"Yeah, I talked to her. Since you wouldn't open the door we eat the foods I bought." Harry said smiling

"Nandos!" Carol said to him with a chuckle

Fücking hurts.

I decided to ignore them both and went back to my movie marathon.

Second movie: The Avengers.

Great. It's a heroes movie, i'm sure i'll be distracted

"Nialllll!" Said Zayn, well more like yelled. I hurriedly went to the backyard. He looks fine

"What?"

"There's a kid in here" he said frantically. So why? What is wrong with that?

"So?"

"His name is Jaxon. Wait, let me call him. Jaxon!" Zayn said later Jaxon came

"Hi Zeyn. Hi Niall" Jaxon said happily.

"Wait how do you know him?" Zayn asked. I meet him a couple times, Zayn. His freaking sister which is Carol is with freaking Harry.

"I meet him a cople timees" he said, at least he's trying to say... Geez. Now Zayn is talking to him. Fine, i'll be back to my movie-marathon

This is the part when Clint Barton or Hawkeye said 'You and I remember Budapest very differently' okay I have no a slightest idea what does it means

Half hour later...

"GUYS FOOD" Harry said yelling, later everyone is coming to the dining room, even Louis. I looked from the living room. There are already Zayn in there with Jaxon making jokes. Liam is busy preparing the plates. Harry, the foods with Carol help of course. And Louis just sitting down with a plain face.

I decided to watch the movie back. It seems like everyone is ignoring me. Or they probably don't care. I took a sip of a vodka. Oh yes I drink

"Niall, ya don't want to eat with us?" Asked I don't know. Probably Liam

"No, I'm all fine" I replied. Yeah i'm fine being ignored. I'm fine not eating. I'm all fine .

°°°

"Ni..." Said someone. I was too distracted by the movie. Oh yeah it's the fourth movie which is Non-Stop. It's about an unknown serial killer in a plane. Yes you see it. They threatened people in a plane. Pretty scary. The third movie is Oculus, a horror movie

"What" I said still looking at the movie. My vodka is already empty about half hour ago. I don't even know what time is it. Probably still evening

"You forgot to eat your dinner, Carol and Jaxon is already leaving an hour ago. Carol is worried about you, she's hoping you would check your phone" said him

"Later" I said still looking at the movie.

"I brought you Nandos. Your favourite" Said him. I'm sure he's smiling like, right now

"Okay cool" I said and watch the movie back. This is the part when an innocent teacher is being choked by the detective

"God damn it!" Yelled him. Okay idc. Later the TV is being turned off.

"Woah why the fück you turned the TV?" I yelled at him. Louis

"Holy shït! Niall! Your eyes all red! Liam! Zayn! Anyone come 'ere!" Louis said panickly.

« Louis »

Yes I still mad at him but it doesn't mean I don't care about him anymore. When I see him was peeking at the living room, I knew that he was hungry. But something, more like someone is making him mad

He keeps watching and watching. Geez, it's almost 7 pm and he's still watching. I even brought him a Nandos. Because he can't resist it. But wow.

He don't want to eat. He drink a whole bottle of Vodka. He watch all the time. His eyes all red. Later Liam and Zayn is in here

"What happened?" Asked Liam panicked. Without my explanation they realise what was wrong. Also Harry which is came by later...

"Niall what is wrong with you" asked Zayn sadly. Niall just keep shut. His eyes is red as fück. He also looked very weak. His expression is blank.

"No, I'm all fine" he said like a robot. That was he said when Liam asked him about eating together

"Niall, tell me what's wrong!" Liam said, he's crying for God sake.

"No, I'm all fine" he said it again. It's like he's being auto-answer. He grabbed the TV remote, and turned on the TV back. Harry immediately take that remote and turned off the TV

"Niall! Be honest with us!" Harry said kinda yelled. That's when his expression changed to furious and trust me, you don't want to see an angry Niall just like an angry Louis.

Oh wait he's drunk. Which is making him more worse. He didn't reply Harry, later he screamed

"NO. I'M. ALL. FINE!" He yelled back. His red eyes make him more scary. It's like a dracula

We decided not to speak. We just watch was he doing. He stand up and then he went to the kitchen. Oh thank God. I'm sure he'll be eating his nandos. I decided to clean up his mess..

"Louis! Look!" Harry said, I instantly looked and saw Niall took another sip of beer. God damn it. I ran to him

"Niall! Stop! You're drunk!" I said to him and drag him to the living room

"Nooo. I'm all fineee!" He said with that answer again. There is no way I bring him to his room.

"Bring him here!" Said Zayn. He's making a nest for him. Well, more like a bunch of blankets and a bunch of small pillows in the carpet. Liam hide the TV remote in the back of the TV.

"No.. I'm all fine" he said back to his normal voice, but his expression is telling the other things. He is finally fall down, with a lot of blankets in there so he's not hurting

He closed his eyes. Then opened it back. All red. And then he closed it again. What is he doing?

"Niall, ya okay?" Asked Harry again. This time without yelling.

"No--" he said and then stopped. And then tears are streaming down to his cheeks.

I knew it he's not okay. There is something wrong with him. It must be our fault or at least one of us. He's crying for God sake. He haven't done that in such a long period. Besides, yes he often got drunk but it was in the past. He leave it behind. But now look at him. Getting drunk and crying.

I looked at him again. He's laying down and...He's smiling to us. He's smiling to Zayn that sitting beside him. He's smiling to Liam that is standing beside him. He's smiling to Harry that is in front of his face. He's smiling to me which is i'm in right beside him. He's smiling then he closed his eyes

"I'm all fine" He continued lying. With eyes closed. Tears are coming both from his eyes. That is enough for us to cried out loud.

To Be Continued »»