Chris and I were so busy for the last month that we didn't really get much time to think about everything, well for me I doubt I was running through his mind like He was in mine. It's like it never happened. It was something I just had to deal with.
Chris was out for a while now, that's something he did for the last month, after whatever meetings, interviews and shootings he would go out then come home late, its almost as if he was purposely trying to avoid me but as I said whatever happened between us was in the past.
I took a shower throwing on a pair of shorts and a T-shirt, the house needed a little tiding up so I did that and started dinner, I grilled some chicken, some brown rice and baked vegetables, I was going to watch tv while I ate but I hear the garage door open which meant Chris reached home, I took my plate and headed outside, not turning the lights on, i sat on the pergola, it would be the first time he and I would be in the same room at the same time at home, I just couldn't face it, the one thing I didn't want to happen, for things to be weird between us but i dug my grave.
I sent a text saying the I cooked to Chris, he walked into the kitchen and I could see him, he looked around for me, then pulled out his phone when he got the text,
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I didn't want to talk to Chris right now but I had no choice, for some reason he could always sense when I was upset, even over a text, He looked out the window, a smile crept onto his face when he saw me, the smile that lighten up my day, the smile that I missed so much,he prepared a plate and walked outside, as much as I wished Chris and I could be more, but having him around was something i can't live without anymore,
Chris: "hey.."
I smiled at him, he sat next to me then place his hand on my thigh, squeezing it, his grasp on my skin flooded imagines of us through my mind.
When I slipped and fell on the cruise he sat on the floor rubbing my knee, I could feel his thumb wiping my tears away, I could feel his lips kissing my knee better, I could feel the endless kisses when I wouldn't wake up, I miss staring into his eyes, so close I could see every shade of blue, i missed his fingers intertwined in mine.
I just tried to block the thoughts out of my head, he was going on and on about something but all I could hear was Muffled sounds,
Y/n: "what was that?"
He laughed, knowing how much I zone out sometimes,
Chris: "my manager wants us there at 7am"
I nodded, taking out my phone to shift around his appointments, he pulled my phone away going through it, the first thing he did was go through my gallery,
Y/n: "give it back.."
Chris: "come on I wanna see why you're always glued to this thing.."
I've never given anyone my phone, it was something strangely personal to me that I never shared with anyone, there were photos from the cruise and I didn't want to deal with it but at the same time Chris and I both agreed to stay friends, so my feelings have to be pushed aside, I had to constantly remind myself.
